Letter

Friday 15/07/05 (Continue)

Orange Zai called … asking tonite the movie in Starlight still on…. Aiks…. I got meeting in KL … scared cannot make it…. So I will ask Fansu wanna go watch mou? Called Fansu no answer…. >.< ….. sms Fansu …. No reply oso ….. :x b4 goto meeting… on9 saw Fansu there leh….. :p with Garfield there oso …. Garfield sick jor…. No wonder Fansu so gan cheong … so no answer & reply sms…. :p asked Fansu wan go movie mar? …. Erm … Fansu worry Garfield so dun hv mood go leh…. Ok lor…. Understand de….. these few days oso keep raining in the evening…. So the grass in the field must be wet wet oso lor…. Eee…. Not nice in such environment… so we decide dun go lor…. Sorry to Orange Zai wor…. :p

At nite …. H on9 at home town….. erm…. Chat a while … HIS pc dn hv real player …. So HE din watch the movies I downloaded & burned in cds … … & HE din noticed the letter …. I asked HIM remember bring back the cds oh…. I dun wan tell HIM got letter inside the envelope …. :x …. HE say ok… & felt weird coz I so gan cheong ask HIM bring back the cds :p

Since no fate to read the letter …. And no fate to know my feelings…. ok lor… take back the letter … maybe add more things then oni give HIM read again :p

12.20am …. I felt a bit moody maybe coz HE din notice the letter…. So I say wanna goto bed jor… HE ask tomolo can go fetch HIM fong gong mar? coz wanna return money to me…. I say ok.

Then I just away from the chat room…. I waited HE off line at 1.40am… then oni goto bed …. :x

Saturday (16/07/05)

Woke up 9.22am ….. called HIM ask HIM in bus jor mei? ….. HE say not yet…. Just arrived bus station oni …. The bus is 9.30am …

Nothing much to do after tat….. on9, fetched mum … boring….

Vans called in the late noon … chat a while…. I called him back … we decided to eat dim sum tomolo morning around 6am …. :x

Bring leong cha to fetch HIM at nite…. We goto Old Klang Road .. eat mixed rice… tat’s the oni place I know still got mixed rice after 10pm …. Actually tat place is to eat porridge one …. But there oso got rice lar….

Any one know where still got Mixed Rice after 10.00pm ar?? Plz tell me :x

OTW to OKR … forgot wat the radio deejay says .. …. If got a person .. cares u, understanding u, love u... the person tat he love must be in happiness.... The deejay ask dunno where got such a person? …. something like tat ….. HE says … got … I asked got meh? Who ar? …….. HE says Mike lor…. I say cheh….. In my heart.. I was thinking ….. ya.. rite… MIKE… pity this Mike … such a good person U oso dun wan … :p ….. wat a joke? >.< ….

After dinner … fetch HIM home ….. HE say tomolo no work…. Will follow house mate goto gym in the morning … then evening will hv steamboat with them oso…

Reached HIS place ….. HE search the envelope from HIS bag…. Then…. Unexpected & shocked … HE open envelope…. Take the cds…. Then HE noticed got papers inside … and take out …. Ask me…wat’s tat ar? …. >.< …. I try to grab the letter… but HE grab back .. :x I say tat’s a letter I wrote to HIM … we say bye bye …. I drive home…

Driving home….. still shock… Y I so stupid…. I shud say tat’s some papers I put in the envelope to protect the cds mar….. aiks…… stupid stupid…. :p

SMS HIM I reached home ….. later …. HE miss call ….. I called back…..

HE says HE cried reading the letter …. HE speaks mandarin with me….. HE asked why mentioned disappointed HE spoken vulgar but say HIM dun change oso nvm ….. ? I say that’s HIS own decisions mar… I understand why HE need to speak Cantonese vulgar with other frens…. Coz tat will make HIM not easy to bully by other ppl especially at HIS work place….

HE say I was wrong in some points … HE is still a veli pure little angel as b4 … :x HE says HE still goes to the heart of a person … HE is not going for looks….. the looks is just the 1^st impression …. I din argue much …… I say most of the PLU oso goes by the looks 1^st de lar…. :x HE says I think HIM tat way coz HE always mentioned which boiboi is cute … but HIS other colleagues oso dun think those boiboi tat HE think is cute … is cute…. :x

HE says sorry if I still sad when think of the unsuccessful relationship … I say enough for saying sorry lar… now is not HIS problem oso …. HE say dun cry when think of the relationship ler…..

HE says HE is not sure lor… wanna protect ppl or let ppl protect …. HE says deped lar… if the next person is want to protect HIM then HE will let ppl protect … if the person is required protection then HE will protect ppl lor ….

In the last part of the letter … I say will slowly let go of HIM …. HE says try lor … slowly lor … :x

HE say HE felt touched coz got a person observed HIM & care HIM so detail … even though we broke up ….. HE says HE remembered strongly last time I said … “no matter wat happen …. I will be there to support HIM … there will be a person always love HIM” ….. :

In the letter I say I wont “chong ai” HIM anymore lor …. HE asked wats “chong ai” … I explain something like pampered HIM lor… like buy HIM egg tart or leong cha … when go fetch HIM fong gong or go find HIM ar… :x HE say oh…. Nvm wor…. I still can “chong ai” HIM de oh… :p

1.20am…. I say sorry for make HIM cried …. we hang up …....

Listening to Landy’s new song “ai hui wen” (love return warm)…..

HE knows I not yet let go fully …. I know HE wont come back to me …….

Movie

Thursday (14/07/05)

Watched movie with Yuanfen, Thomas (Hush) and Raphael. Thomas… erm… grown meat jor (Fei jor)…. Aiks… young ppl sure easy grow meat…. Envy sei me …. Raphael .. 1^st time meet… he was late…. :x wakakaka …. Got a key chain from him… yeah~~ key chain from UK … :p

23^rd Movie: Fantastic 4 * * * ½

Maybe expect too much … end up … it seems nothing so great about the movie…. Not much action actually with the bad guy ….. just at the end few scene…. A bit disappointed about tat….. Got a feeling … Fantastic 4 similar with The Incredible …. The Thing = Mr. Incredible, Mr. Fantastic = Elastic Gal, Invisible Women = Violet, Human Torch = Jack Jack (Jack Jack got change to human torch at the end of the movie…. Remember?) No doubt … the Human Torch is gorgeous … ngek ngek ngek …. He really leng zai … smart looking… nice body … muahahaha …. :x

Back home after movie…. Play play with the 7 puppies… then goto bed lur~… so guai … sleep early……. Coz next day got meeting early morning…. L

Friday (15/07/05)

2.28pm … HE miss call …. Ask HIM doing wat ….. HE just got home from lunch with borther….. HE say last nite yam cha till almost 4am with frens … I ask HIM whether got do the work HE brought home do….. HE laugh… hehehe… to9 oni do…. I say to9 HE sure lazy do lar~… hehe… sure din do then bring back to kl …. & tell ppl HE too busy at home… so din do lor…. Muahahaha….

A way out

I hv chosen a difficult path to let go…. Some times I will get confuse …. & stuck at some where….

To forget a relationship… best way will be … dun see him again, dun contact him again, dun hear his news, dun even bother him again… by this … you will let go easily….. even though you still like him a lot…..

But I chosen a different way …. I m trying to let go…. But I still seeing HIM … chat with HIM … in the process of help HIM …. I lost my way …. Maybe because I see a hope … a hope tat HE might be coming back….. tat’s y I will feel jealous …. Feel sad …. Feel like crying ….

I having problem to find a way out … …… I will find a way out….

Radio playing Mariam Yeung de song, over age (Chiu Ling)…. Lolx … so ngam me listen.. :x

Wednesday (13/07/05)

At nite about 8.27pm Cannon call …. He came back from “dating” jor… :p We chat a while then I say wanna go out liao lu …. He asked me go where? I say going fetch ppl fong gong & goto Pudu buy bus ticket..… Cannon scold me … haiz … say HE oni using me… L …. Why I still treat HIM so good wor … haiz… HE say Vans must be din brain wash me enough…. Wahahaha…. I say ya lor… he brain wash me till left a spark… then the spark … start burning again…. Wakakakka….. :p

8.40pm…. go out lu….. goto buy Tong Gei Egg Tarts first …. J hehe….

9.33pm…. HE fong gong came out… we go Pudu …. Erm… talk then… quiet…. Then talk ….. then quiet ….. mostly I was quiet …..

After bought ticket…. HE say not so hungry ….. dunno wanna eat or not…. I say I bought Egg Tarts for HIM …. J

HE say… wanna pak tor… & take care of a person …. More or less need to use money … I say A A is ok mar… HE say no gar …. Ppl might think HE is gu hon mar…. I quiet… then HE got say …. Those cute boiboi that HE likes always veli childish 1…. HE asked is HE childish oso …. ?? I say …. Erm… half half lor….

Then HE start talk again …. Erm…. Talking about …. HE quite easy change target ….. then HE ask me is HE flower heart? Or slut? …. I say no lor…. Most PLU is like tat … then HE say no mar…. HE is different…. Coz HE not purposely change target 1 mar… coz HIM always been rejected mar … then HE felt no chance to continue… then oni change de mar… some more some target HE din say out de .. just keep in the heart din tell out de…. (I was thinking … ya .. rite… u always been rejected… but I was been rejected by u… blek …) then HE asked….. erm… then do you still can be fren with this kind of person ? will I think HE is flower heart then dun wanna fren HIM…. ?? I say… erm…. I will go home think about it …. Muahhahaha…… :x ….. HE say…. Sui yan! … HE say … how I think of HIM is very important coz I m HIS best fren mar……

The letter …. On the back seat … in an envelope … with 2 cds … I downloaded Madagascar & Mr. And Mrs. Smith …. Borrow HIM go hometown watch … the envelope with few papers (lyrics) put in a bag … try to dun make the letter not so obvious …. Wat’s written in the letter? Erm… basically … is some feeling from the very beginning till last Friday…. That I compare some personality that I felt HE changed … telling HIM how I feel about the changes …. & I did mentioned in the letter …. I will start letting HIM go jor …

The word best fren …. Make me wanna take out the letter ….. just past to HIM the cds & lyrics …. My mind thinking .. later how I take out the letter leh ? …. HE keep talking… about a colleague… always come near HIM … when few colleagues are going out to take LRT as a group…. This colleague (the one that I mentioned b4 in the past blog… the one who goto HIS place bath one) always got wait for HIM … and always got hold HIS hand…. Maybe purposely or not purposely …. HE says HE also just let it be … HE holds back lor…. HE asked … this is not slut hor? It’s nothing hor? Coz this colleague also holds his good frens’ hand mar……. I say this is the tactic to flirt ppl…. :x ….. oooppssss ……. the air full of jealousy ….. haha…. Sure HE din realized I still can jealous… :p

HE says to take care a person really need face many things …. Haiz … maybe HE will change back to let ppl take care or change to like gals ….. I quiet … (tat time reached HIS place jor) ….. I was thinking .. .. wanna take out the letter mou? …. Erm… nvm lar… oredi written ….. more over … if HE din watch the cds … HE wont realized got letter inside …. :p …… HE says … yer… why I so cool oredi geh? Dun hv cheng chui jor…. Cannot joke jor…. Then HE pretend I lock the door dun wanna let HIM out… calling help… lolx ….. I kuchi HIM …. Actually feel like hugging HIM …. Wakkakakaka…… blek…. :p

Pass HIM the bag …. Say bye bye lu…

Driving back… thinking about HE says HE might change back to let ppl take care…. Thinking about Cannon says do a 18 yrs old boy will really like a 30 yrs old old man ??? ……. I just refuse the accept the reality … haiz….. Ooby … come kill me… so that I can reborn…. Muahahaha….. :x

Expensive Parking

Noon…. Got lunch appointment with the Sales Personnel at the hotel…. She buy me & my colleague dim sum at the Chinese Restaurant in the hotel… wahahhaha…. Nice~ ….. but went just reach the hotel at 12.55pm…. HE miss call …. HE just finish class …. Ask wanna hv lunch 2gether mar…. too bad…. :x I oredi in hotel jor…. If I still in office I think I will go lunch with HIM ….. then ffk the lunch appointment :x At the hotel lobby.... saw few malaysian idol participants.... Azam & Adam... last week been eliminated... :X

After dinner at home… 7.50pm…. goto Low Yat Plaza… bought blank cds & cd pen writer…. Dunno where got cheaper parking… & lazy to walk far far…. So 8.10pm parked at Sg. Wang… 5 mins got the cds & pen…. 10 mins looks for any DVD … bought Eros and Crutch. Chose Eros basically coz it got 3 directors.. each director shots 1 short film…. & 1 of the director is Wong Kar Wai…. He directed The Hand in this movie… and the most interesting part is … Gong Li giving a masturbate to Zhang Zhen. :X muahahaha….. Chose Crutch coz the movie based on a true story about a boy falls into his male teacher.

Aiks…. Parked not more than 20 mins … pay RM4… so expensive… :(

Got home b4 9.00pm …. Burn all the downloaded de Naruto into cds….. chat while burning cds….

11.37pm HE miss call … HE say HE will be going back home town on 14/07 then back kl on 16/07… HIS father ask HIM buy something …. But HIS OT & commissions oni out on 15/07…. So need borrow money…. & I know HE veli guai…. Always go back home town & buy mum things and meal… J so I say will fetch HIM fong gong Weds nite… & fetch him go buy bus ticket oso…. & I oso can pass HIM the letter I written to HIM jor…. :x

Not feel like chatting after hang up …. Din goto bed either …. Watch Eros (The Hand) … till 1am…. Then oni sleep…..

Fri, Sat & Sun

Friday (08/07/05)

Noon… IRC ….discuss with Orange and Fansu … Fansu at Orange’s place ….. tomolo how?? Who is going …

Evening …. Phone… HE say HE cant make it on Saturday coz HE need work full day…. But HE say why not go find HIM yam cha after the movie…. I say will be veli late de wor… will be around after 12am… coz we watch 2 movies …. HE say it’s ok coz Sunday HE work noon…. I say ok lor…. I will ask Fansu & Orange Zai later …

Nite …. IRC… Orange say need place to overnite tomolo … we decide Orange ask HIM whether can stay HIS place….

Saturday (09/07/05)

Morning woke up …. Watch Naruto… finally finish the latest episode jor… wakakaka… then Orange zai & Fansu oso come IRC jor… we discuss later how…. Fansu say he got permission to stay fren’s place to9… so Orange Zai need call HIM … ask HIM can both of them stay HIS place…. :x then we discuss wat to bring & wat to eat b4 the movie … I bring 100plus.. Chocolate Kacang, Pringles chips…. We decided to ta bao McD … muahaha…. Fansu so happy…. Coz can eat Mc Flurry Oreo…

Noon… HE ask how to9… we going to find HIM yam cha mar? …. I say go ar…. Tot Orange oredi call HIM jor… but not yet… I ask can Fansu & Orange overnite HIS place .. HE say can…

4.30pm… bath & get prepare to go out lur ….. try style the hair….. but failed jor…. Cant make the shape… L … so mar chin cai lor… comb like usual :x

5.25pm…. wait Fansu & Orange at LRT station …. Fansu arrived 1^st… then 2gether wait for Orange…. Wah… Fansu brought a lot of potato chips & snacks…. Like going for a party like tat… hehe… Orange late jor… :x

After orange arrived… we go ta bao McD at Connaught… then on the way to Startlight Cinema lur~ …. Quite smooth all the way …. Reached Bukit Kiara at 6.35pm …. We need to park at Gate 2… L need to walk far far to the entrance of Nokia Startlight Cinema leh~~ I walk front… Fansu & Orange walk behind… Fansu ask he & orange who taller… muahahaha…. Orange taller …. A bit lor…. :x

Once enter the open ground of the cinema…. Wah.. many ppl there jor…. Got many charity society there… we found a spot to settled down… then sit there.. look around…. Erm… no leng zai … muahahahha…. Still so early … 8.30pm oni start show… we eat McD… wahaha…. French Fries all soft soft jot … :x …. The sky a bit cloudy… drops rain jor… wah~~ scary… scared raining heavily…. But lucky didn’t lor…. Hehe…. After had McD… Me & Orange go walk around …. Orange saw got games to play … but I say tat’s for children de wor … coz all line up there de were kids nia mar …. Then he say… ish~~ ok lor… dun wan stay here mar dun stay lor… :p hehe…. So siu hei… joking joking …. :x

Finall waited till 8.40pm…..

22^nd Movie: Robots * * * ½

Very entertaining … hehe … the robot city .. so fantastic designed … the transportation so fun to watch ….

10.05pm…. finished 1^st movie…. Wait for 2^nd movie… it says break for 15 mins…. I say.. wah.. ok… 15mins oni… then can finish b4 12am leh~ good… can go yam cha early …. Then HE no need to wait so long for us to go over lor… I m sure HE felt sien to wait for us… :x hehe…. Got free orange drinks to take…. Wahahahah… me & orange go queue up …. Haiz… 1 person limited to 1 can oni…. :p but after tat … orange zai go line up again … take 1 more tin… but then we saw got ppl 1 time take 2 – 4 tins!!! …. Wah…. I oso go take 2 tins … :p hehe…. I dun wan drink de… take for HIM nia … :X

10.35pm… HE miss call…. HE ask wat time we go over…. I say 2^nd show start soon… 12am the show shud over…. HE say ok… will wait for us…..

Ish~~~ waited 30 mins jor…. Still not yet start de movie leh~… 10.45pm oni start advertisement… 11.05pm oni start 2^nd show : The Incredible …. Haiz… so late jor…

Sunday (10/07/05)

12.15am … HE miss call again… I called back…. Told HIM the show started late … so around 12.45pm oni finish leh…. HE say… wah… so late…. Then dun wan yam cha lor… I say ok lor… I thinking (I din say out) if no yam cha.. then I fetch orange & fansu to Nilai lor… coz if HE wan sleep now.. later no need kacao HIM mar… but HE say they can go overnite lor… then HE change mind say… erm.. ok lar… go yam cha lar… I say ok lor… we reach there we call HIM lor… then hang up….

2 mins later…. HE sms … say HE was tired … wan sleep early… let HIM know later whether we decide going HIS place mou? Haiz… I dunno HE wan us go or not? 2 mins ago say ok go yam cha…. 2 mins later sms say tired… confused….

12.45pm… show finish …. I give the sms msg to orange see… then I told him I can fetch them to Nilai … no need kacao HIM …. Ask him decide if wanna go overnite at HIS place … then I inform HIM lor… Orange Zai no idea…. He ask Fansu to decide…. Fansu say stick to original plan… goto HIS place lor… then I called HIM at 1.05am… say we are going over… HE say ok.. wait for us ..

OTW goto HIS place… suddenly heavy rain…. Walao… hardly see the road…. >.< …. Finally reached HIS place still heavy rain… & dun hv parking near HIS place..…. We go around few times jor… aiks… I say I park near aside blocking ppl car a while… then lead Orange & Fansu to HIS place …. Then I quickly come back … Orange & Fansu say find a better parking lar.. we all go HIS place chit chat till rain not so heavy then oni I go … I say dun wan lar…. Dun wanna kacao HE sleep early lor… Then I park at further place… not blocking ppl car…. Lead both of them to HIS place… we all wet! Hahhaha… coz really heavy rain … wasted some time… finally 2.10am at HIS door jor… HE open door let Orange & Fansu in… I know Fansu & Orange worry me drive back …. & wan me stay there lor…. But I dun wan lar… My pants & shirt at the back oso wet jor… I told Fansu I will wait at the car till rain not so heavy then oni drive back lor…. More over HE heard me going back oso din ask me stay a while …. :x haiz … nvm lor…. I oredi decide going home de mar…. If HE ask me stay a while I will stay de ar :p

Go back to the car…. More wet jor… still heavy rain…. Drive back slowly … the road so wet & the highway got some water blocked … cant see clearly tim :x finally reached home save at 2.50am gua….. dun remember… sms 3 of them…

Took bath …. On9 while waiting hair to dry…. 4 am something oni sleep … thinking dun wan sleep …. Coz Vans say he will back kl in the morning then we go eat dim sum… but still go nap lor….

6.15am… Vans called …. We go dim sum at connaught … muahahha…. Nice dim sum … saw leng zai there too …. :x

8.45am… Vans ask wanna go see his ex got playing basket ball mou :x I say ok ar … wah.. that place is actually near Fansu house .. the play round there…. :x if Fansu is there sure will go surprise Fansu … but Fansu at HIS place now :x hehe

9am something back home …. Goto bed at 10am …. 11.34am…. HE miss call…. I called back … nothing much … just ask wat I m doing… continued sleep again….

Slept till 2pm something then have porridge then sleep back … till 4pm something…

On9 chit chat…. Fansu so busy… din chat with me…. then Orange zai on9… chat with Orange lor … Orange ask me wanna know wat about Orange zai… erm… I dunno wat to ask ar…. Coz I felt those are Orange privacy mar…. Orange hv right to dun tell de mar… nvm de lar.. not a big matter actually …. :p orange got blog hor?? Din give me read oso …. Hmmph….

Thursday 07/07/08

Orange zai got Starlight cinema free tickets ….. coz wanna watch Robots & The Incredible on Saturday nite…. Coz the tickets is 2 person per ticket …. So must find even number of ppl to go watch … if not will wasted 1 ticket… :X ….. I suggest find Fansu & Yuanfen go …. Orange oredi ask HIM go oso…. but finally … Yuanfen dun wan watch Robots…. So he dun wan go… left Fansu & HIM to confirm… I say will call HIM at nite…

11.20pm I called HIM …. HE was barbequing with frens …. Answered the phone like I m disturbing HIM… I asked HIM free Sat nite coz Orange got free tickets for movie… then HE say ya hor…. Erm… still dunno… need to check tomolo … I say ok… then let me know tomolo…. Then HE say HE not happy now…. Coz saw the person HE dun wan see…. Some more tat person bring another fren come barbeque …. I ask HIM fast fast eat liao then go home lor…. HE say they just start put on fire oni…. >.< …. Then HE ask me fly car go there pui HIM go else where chit chat …. I say I wanna fly to my bed sleep liao … hahaha…. Then HE say .. hmmph… go lar go lar go sleep lar u .. :p

21st Movie

21^st Movie: The Amityville Horror * * *

Been censored some horror scenes … the story based on the true story …. Quite scary if all the horror scene didn’t been censored… the little gal, Chalssie, acting is not so good… but she really brave standing & walking at the roof of the house …. The male actor, George (Ryan Reynolds) is so hot~ :X muahahaha…. & with sexy body :p

Summary continue ….

Tuesday (05/07/05)

12.15am… back home rest …

took bath …. Then looking at the monitor screen… din chat …. Been thinking … thinking ……. & thinking………. Break up 112 days …. I need to give up …. Think .. think & keep thinking ….. until goto bed …

6.00am …. Woke up…. Need to get prepare goto grandmum house for the last funeral procedures …. Oni slept 4 hours … L

2.00pm …. Back home …. Bath & nap …

6.00pm something … H sms…. Ask to fetch HIM coz wanna pay back the money to me…. I say ok… will fetch HIM fong gong at 9.30pm….

9.54pm…. HE came out …. We go dinner …. HE told me the story on Monday again going out with the cute boi & meet Orange zai …

then HE say maybe got 1 gal colleague like HIM …. :x coz HE praised her tat she is beautiful …. I was quiet …. For a moment …. I told my self …GIVE UP on HIM ….. HE noticed I m quiet…. Ask me why so quiet… I say nothing …

Otw fetch HIM home …. HE ask me do I disappointed coz HE speaks vulgar words & be veli chou lou …. I say yes…. HE say then HE change lor … HE be chou lou with HIS colleagues but be guai guai with me … I say then tat mar veli fake lor… you just do wat u likes lor…. U prefers how then do lor….

Suddenly I got lot of thing wanna tell HIM …. All my feelings … from the veli beginning until now …. But I know HE got many things to fan now….. family issues, works, study … I also dun wanna fan HIM liao ….

I think I will write down those feelings …. Then give it to HIM the next time I see HIM ….

Otw drive home …. I finally got the feeling… wanna let HIM go from my heart…

For me …. I wont consider a bf that got many ppl likes him and many choices to choose … Not because I dun hv confident in my self… but I dun hv confident in him … if a person that knows he got many choices … when some relationship problems accrued … he wont appreciated the relationship or consider solve the problems with you 100% … coz he might think … why I must tolerate?? I got other better choices out there waiting for me….. …… you might not agree with my point .. but I strongly believed.. this will affect a relationship if one party do not hv heart to continue the journey with you….

Last time I did not see clearly …. Maybe love blinded me… I may not attach with HIM if I know HE got choices…. HE told me b4 … HE dun chose ppl …. But now it’s not the same anymore….

While waiting at the traffic light turning to Sri Petaling …. tears drop out …. The heart is still so em ser dak…. I told my self… this shud be the last time I cry b’coz of this past relationship…. This time… it’s over …. No more jealous no more pain ….

If you ask me .. wat if HE want me back…. ?? then HE need to come kao me lor… muahahaha ….. :x

Summary 01/07/05 – 04/07/05

Friday (01/07/05)

HE miss call around 12.00am something …. HE say wanna claim for the movie Madagascar that I said I wanna belanja HIM long time b4… I go check on9… the last show time is 5.45pm… so cannot jor …. Then HE say belanja HIM dinner … HE say HIS colleague said Titiwangsa got 1 restaurant got serve steamboat eat all u can… nice wor… so I ask HIM ask HIS colleague where actually the restaurant is & the name… We fixed at 7.00pm I reached HIS place pick him….

5.30pm … HE say need to do OT … postponed to 7.30pm

6.30pm… I otw to HIS place jor… it need 45 mins drive … coz fong gong time … veli jam at Middle Ring Road 2 … plan to reach at 7.15pm … J

6.34pm … HE miss call again .. HE say HE just finish his work oni… postponed to 8.15pm…. I say ok…. L ….. aiks… oredi otw jor… so purposely drive slow slow.. & choose most jam de lane …

7.35pm… reached HIS place … turn to petrol station… pump petrol …. Mi mi mor mor .. …. … 7.50pm… reached back HIS place…. Wait …..

8.28pm…. HE came down…. HE say sorry …. HE reached home at 8.00pm…. coz just now HE pui a colleague hv dinner 1^st … *doink*

otw .. looking for the Nelayan Restaurant …. Just agak agak know where the area… but dunno the exactly place…. Then HE talk talk talk….. & ask me do I feel HE is slut coz got few person HE likes …. I purposely say YES … then HE angry jor … dun wanna talk to me liao … HE say I always like tat .. always say those thing wanna make HIM not happy… HE oredi many pressure still wanna make HIM feel bad… HE say come out with me coz HE wanna relax HIMSELF…..

I say soli lor.. not lar HIS is not slut …. :x then HE say I must say IT in a veli serious way ….. :x then oni HE smile back…..

Finally we found the restaurant …. Many ppl …. Mostly malays…. The food is not veli nice….

10.30pm… otw fetch HIM back…. HE say wanna go CC on9 kao zai & change HIS caller ring tone…. Then HE talk talk talk…. & jokingly say… put me in the potential boiboi list … I was quiet….

11.15pm… I back home…. See HIM on9 … tell HIM is reached home jor…. HE say tq for the meal… I say welcum … & I say plz dun joke with me tat I m on the potential boiboi list … coz I might think too much … HE ask do I still like HIM …. I hesitate a while …. But still say YES…. HE say “oh” …

Saturday (02/07/05)

Totally forgot wat happen…. Nothing special I guess … or my memory loss …

Sunday (03/07/05)

Got plan to go out this morning but …. Lazy… finally oso din go out …. chat on9… then go out ta bao KFC for lunch …. back home watch Naruto ….

Around 3.00pm… father called back… say grandmum passed away….

Wait mum back from Gua Tempurong…. Then oni goto grandmum house to help out the funeral…

On9 chat & watch Naruto again ….

11.00pm…. mum back …. Then we rush to grandmum house … the funeral follow the Taoism way… so got dar jai

11.14pm…. H miss called me….. whole family in the car…. Not fong bin to call HIM back … so sms HIM… will call HIM later… HE sms back … asked can I top up HIS hp for HIM 1^st… coz HIS salary not out yet…. Aiks … I dun hv the top up sms number leh… sms HIM … told HIM I otw goto grandmum funeral & dun hv the sms number now… HE replied… tat’s ok…

11.25pm … then I sms Yuanfen… ask him if he on9… goto hotlink website find the postpaid sms top up number for me….

11.34pm …. Yuanfen sms me the number…. So I call H … wanna ask HIM still wan me to top up coz I got the number jor …. HE din pick up… maybe HE sleep jor…

Monday (04/07/05)

12.00am…. the dar jai ended for day 1 …. We go back home …..

12.45am … after bath…. On9 while wait the hair dry … Vans was there…. So lala members go yam cha….

1.30am… Sebs came picked me… we go nearby Sri Petaling eat dim sum …

1.45am – 7.00am ….. scarified sleeping time…. Listening to lala chat… :x haha … coz I din chat much… all lalaclub SOP …. Sebs, Vans & Koko ….

7.00am – 9.00am … sleep… zzzZZZZZZ….

9.00am … wake up … prepare to goto grandmum house .....

9.45am …. Sms HIM …. Ask HIM …. Is HIS salary out…? if not I top up for HIM 1^st… HE replied back …. Plz top up for HIM 1^st ….

1.30pm …. Back home rest & take bath…..

3.00pm something … HE miss call …. I called back …. HE was in the LRT …. otw going dating … HE told me b4 .. today HE will be going to meet a cute potential boiboi ….

5.00pm… goto grandmum house continue the funeral ….

11.00pm something… HE miss call … I sms HIM… will call HIM later coz funeral procedures going on…. 11.34pm …I called HIM … HE told me HIS dating with the cute boy not work out … coz dun hv common topic to talk… oni cute boy & his fren talking … HE felt left out …. So HE just leave them & go back to HIS work place chat with HIS colleagues…. HE said HE met Orange zai there… they both go dinner & chat a lot … HE say must hv been me so 8 told Orange zai many things … coz Orange zai seems to know all HIS things …… :x

20th Movie: War of the Worlds

20^th Movie: War Of The Worlds * * * ½

A huge film that most ppl very looking forward…. It has a very nice opening… but the ending is very very disappointing…. You will think… wat? End liao lar..? just like tat? >.< style="mso-spacerun: yes"> the movie opening says the alien has been studying & watching the earth how many thousands years ago…. if they dun hv strong confident to survive in earth condition…. Y they come attacked the earth? So stupid :x

No Name

Yesterday noon…HE sms… says wanna borrow something… I say ok…

I got fetch HIM fong gong…. HE says wanna eat mix rice…. I dunno in center KL …. 10pm where still got mix rice… So I drive back to Old Klang road hv mix rice…

I dunno why the last few times included this time… while waiting HIM fong gong… will veli looking forward …. But after seeing HIM liao… I not feel like talking …. Maybe because I know HE is ok …. Then I fong sum lor …. Or maybe I dun wanna talk because I dun wanna hear more “ma hai, mat lan 7…” come out from HIS mouth…

So…I will ask HIM sing song… lolx…. Ask HIM sing Yu Hen de Shen Hu Xi …. Then HE sang Fish Leong de Ru Guo You Yi Tian ….

After dinner … send HIM home…

It is veli happy …. When you know … wat you predicted is actually the truth … provided those things tat you predicted are good things…. On the other way…. it will be veli hurt… those bad things that you predicted …actually came through 1 by 1 ….

You say me siu hei I oso wanna say de ler…. Maybe it’s nothing to some ppl … & maybe it’s nothing to HIM oso…. but I really care …. predicted HE forgot my birthday… it happen ….. predicted HE forgot my real name… my Chinese name & English name…. This came true last nite…. (I m not predicted this last nite… but predicted after we broke…. One day HE will forgot all my things… :x)

I not purposely ask HIM de …. Coz HE use my hp then saw I got type ppl’s Chinese name in the phone book …. Saw HIS oso I got put Chinese name…. Then HE ask me … I m Lee wat wat liao ar? ….. >.< wa lao…. I think I wanna predict next time magnum 1 prize number jor ….. :p if I m not mistaken … I told HIM my name…. Not less than 3 times jor…. HE say HE so many things wanna remember ….. where can remember so many things wor… …. …. …. …..

I ask HIM go home think HIMSELF…. I wont tell HIM …. HE keep asking till I drop HIM home…. HE jokingly say… “hmmp… dun call me ar.. I wont listen…. Dun sms me ar… I wont read!” …. Lolx.. …

After I reached home…. To show tat I really disappointed … I dun wan sms HIM .. let HIM know I reach home jor…. :x … but finally I oso sms HIM … immediately HE miss call back…. I called back… HE still keep asking …. :x I say I dun tell dun tell dun tell dun tell …….. HE keep say Tell Tell Tell Tell Tell ….. HE wont hang up if I dun tell …. I say then I hang up…. :p HE say quite seriously if I hang then dun call HIM again… :x tat moment… for a second…. I wanna hang jor… flash back some memories… I m tired… not body tired…. But heart … I told HIM my name… I will see how long this time HE will remember it…. Then I pretend nothing… ask HIM fast fast go bath & rest….

Quite down .. after hang up… feeling like wanna ask HIM go read all my blog…. Lolx … :x thinking wanna let out my feeling on9…. But dun wanna spoilt ppl mood there…. After say good nite in irc at 12.04am …. din sleep at once… I know I will think too much ….

I dunno how many ppl tat know my name b4 …. Actually remember it … u forgot now nvm…. But dun come ask me if u dun prepared to remember it … feel annoyed if told liao ppl few times … but still come ask u… wat’s ur name jor ar? I think of Tino & Cannon …. Tino is the best of remember ppl name… I told him once oni… he can remember till now… erm… maybe he forgot liao oso.. muahahaha…. Coz din chat with him recently…. Will ask him if see him on9 later…. Wakakaka…

29/06/05

So watch Naruto anime …. Till 1.00am … then oni go sleep ….

Luckily …. Veli fast fall a sleep … & slept quite well … maybe really tired jor … coz the nite b4 oni slept 3 hours…

This morning in office … sms Orange zai… ask him wake up… lolx … coz he wanna goto MV watch early show today… orange zai miss call back …. Means he oredi wake up jor….. :x …. I use office phone call him…. ask him watch 11.00am de show… then 1.00pm I can go MV find him lor…. :p 1^st time talk to orange zai …. He say my voice childish… sob sob sob…… :x hahaha…. Ya lor… I dun hv veli deep man voice lar… hmmph….

But finally orange zai oso late jor to MV..... oni free after 12.00pm de show.... aiks...... after 2.00pm my lunch time oso over jor lor~ ... :x cant go find him tim.... L

Initial D.... nice~!

25/06/05

HE miss call around 7.42pm… I called back… HE says HE think over…. Will just stay as fren with tat guy…. I asked HIM… HE is ok mou? HE say still ok…. HE will chat with me when HE feel not ok….

26/06/05

Watch Naruto till 3.00am…. then sleep…

Woke up at 9.00am… prepared my self to fetch Fansu at LRT …

We going to watch Initial D at Sunway…. At 11.05am…

Fansu a bit late jor~ :p but we still make it to Sunway for the phone booking tickets…

19^th Movie: Initial D * * * *

For me the movie is not bad… Like watching MTV of Jay Chou… muahahaha… I like Jay Chou…. Got a fren like Edison veli much but anti Jay Chou. :x …. Hahaha…. Jay Chou in the movie just act like him self…. Nothing special … he did his best… it’s natural … din feel like he is acting …. The story is exactly the same as the anime…. The car racing scene is not bad… Anthony Wong… really good in acting… guess he will be nominated best supporting actor with this movie :x

Fansu & I had lunch .. then we goto Mid Valley … to look for a present for a fren…. J so lucky… easily got a parking there.. hahahaha…. We jln jln … then around 5.00pm… we go off from MV … then Fansu decided to hv dinner with me oso… coz I dinner alone, home no cook…. Got relative house warming… but I dun wanna go… :p We regretted to come out from MV so early… lolx…. Coz both oso not yet hungry…. So we goto carrefour at Sri Petaling…. Jln jln… see see the model of Gundam Seed Destiny… then see see the new Proton Savvy car….. after dinner… sent Fansu to LRT station… wanna send Fansu home de…. But Fansu paiseh… ok lor… sent him till LRT.. J Fansu next time no need paiseh…. Not far nia mar… :p

Watching Naruto at nite again….

27/06/05

after work… back home … on9 chat a while.. later at nite…. Lala frens say wanna yam cha… got ppl come fetch .. wakaka.. so no need drive…. :p we goto cheras near by Leisure Mall yam cha till 1.00am…. then discuss wanna go where continue chit chat… got ppl wanna goto Genting…. Say 4-5am come back…. Wakkakaka… so chi sin.. :p lucky the “driver” dun wan go …. If not I will need cheat MC the next day .. :x …. Finally we goto LW continue chit chat…. But I oso din chat much…. :p coz when ppl ask me …. Am I still not yet let got of HIM …. I am kind of reluctant to answer lor… I say … erm…. Still in the progress to let go lor…. It is correct mar… :p I din cheat ppl …. I just dun wan ppl think … erm… how to say… so long liao still dun wan let go… act stupid nia….. Like I not yet let go is I find problem my self…. >.< & I dun wan ppl worry me lor…. :p

Got a lala fren last nite dunno why so free ... suddenly read all my blogs ….lolx… He realized some of the things I told him b4 was not the true… wakkakaka…. Soli wor… :p paiseh to say mar those time… … so read my blog is the most direct way to know the true me :p

But this fren hor… bz pak tor lately…. No time to care me jor.. sad~ L…. Hahaha… got bf no fren liao … :p

We both oso laugh when heard other ppl say … I hate bi …. Lolx… :p why laugh? Hahaha… dun tell u… read back all my previous blog…. :p

28/06/05

Back home at 3.00am….. then on9 till 4.00am …. Then goto ooi ooi lor…. Woke up at 7.30am…. but still lying on bed …. Roll roll roll till 8.00am… then oni prepared to work…. So sleepy :x

2.45pm….. eyes veli sleepy jor…. Lolx… nap a while at office…. :x

Summary for Wed - Thurs

Tuesday 21/06/05

Goto bed at 11.00pm…. HE miss call at 12.39am …. I called back BUT Maxis network was down….. try call till 1.30am…still cannot…. So dulan ….. damn Maxis. This is the first time I never manage to return HIS miss call…. I realized I m too over… I felt hard to fall sleep coz din manage to call HIM back…. I m chi9sin.

Wednesday 22/06/05

HE miss call around 12.35pm… HE say the flu medicine I gave HIM not ngam HIM… coz make HIM felt sakit perut this morning and make HIM felt blur-blur…. I ask HIM take HIS own medicine then and drink more water.

At nite so~~ dulan… around 8.45pm…. NO electricity!! Cant on9, cant watch tv & cant watch dl’ed de anime….. so hot some more… waited till around 10pm… lying on my bed … half fall sleep…. Got few calls… but cant talk long … coz hp low battery… no current to charge …. So angry…. L

Thursday 23/06/05

Woke up numerous times coz hot & dun when got 1 mosquito snake in my room.. kacau me till cant sleep…. Roll roll roll …. Roll till 2.45am …. The current came back… go on9 a while coz wanna book movie tickets for tml …. Then oni sleep …. Damn .. only can sleep for 3 hours … then need to wake up goto work jor….. sleepy eyes…. L

3.20pm… HE miss call… I called back…. HE sound weird…. Something must has happen….. Although this a my blog….but tat is HIS personal matters… really not respect if I written wat HE told me here….. what happen was most PLU will did it intentionally or unintentionally ….. use your imagination…. But dun think too far… :p HE need someone to accompany & talk to… HE asked me to find HIM tonite … I say I will go fetch HIM fong gong at nite…..

18^th Movie: Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy * * *

Actually the story is not bad…. But those funny jokes really spoilt the movie…. The whole movie can be directed much better & more seriously….. the animation & graphic effects were not bad…. But the movie is more to kids’ movie…. My friend commented “ 3 8” right after the movie is ended…. Lolx….. I heard that the book will be much better than the movie.

After movie at 8.40pm…. start my journey goto HIS work place. Reached at 9.15pm…. need to wait for 15mins more…. 9.34pm…. HE came out …. We go Sweet Talk, Bukit Bintang, to have dinner. My treat.. coz to award HIM for get good results in HIS last exam… paper 1 … 96marks & paper 2… 82 marks…. Although I told HIM b4 both papers must get above 90marks then only I will treat HIM dinner…. But still … wanna cheer HIM up a bit… I tolerate ….

All I can say what’s bothering HIM now is …. The relationship problems with tat guy who hv bf which claimed the bf will wanna break with him…..HE knew wat had happen was wrong…. I know HE feels so bad …

What had happen is actually a normal thing in PLU circle… but … really disappointed this had happen to HIM ….. I dunno whether HE had changed or this is the other side of HIM that I din see about HIM …..

I analyzed some situation with HIM … let HIM know the worst situation … & ask HIM to prepare the worst…. I m not a person with many words….. most of the time I m just a listener…. I dun have beautiful words to console and consult ppl…. I will just make it short & str8 to the point…

In between the conversation … for a moment…. I felt regretted that I have been 2gether with a person like this with my true heart… that is not is good feeling…. I din tell HIM this feeling coz tat was not the rite time…

On the way sending HIM home…. HE says HE are scared to be alone… no one to chat with HIM at home… I understand … for a 18yrs old boy… far away from hometown … missing the family… need to work and study …. it’s a tough life tat HE need to take care of HIM self here alone ….

For a moment …. I felt like wanna mor mor HIS head….. but cant coz I m driving… but then HE manja me and HE leaned his head on my shoulder… hahaha …. Not expected tat will happen… :p HE say maybe HE could go over my place to9, maybe HE was joking only… but I din think much…. My spontaneous answer is no… I say dun come kacau me sleep … coz I need sleep to9… I oni slept 3 hours last nite…. Actually got many reasons I say no… 1) If HE come over nite… HE need to wake up at 6.30am with me… coz 7.00am.. I need to goto work jor … 2) I scare I will do wrong things …. Wakakakak…… 3) is I really need sleep …. 4) my parent will nag & question.. if they find out.. why I bring a young boy back home overnite so late…. If I stay alone I will ask HIM come… then I can keong gan HIM … wakakkakakakkakaka….. :p

11.30pm…. sent HIM home…. Ask HIM dun think too much… fast fast take out HIS contact lens…. Coz HE oredi wear it 24 hours jor…..

11.50pm… I reached home…. Sms HIM back home safe. Login IRC …. Stares at the screen… din chat & doing nothing… coz dun feel like chatting…. For a while…. Then goto bed.

13days after we broke …. I accompanied HIM coz HE broke with another guy.

100days after we broke …. I accompanied HIM coz HIS relationship problems.

Surprisingly I fall a sleep fast & din wake up in the middle of the nite.

Friday 24/06/05

Sms HIM in the morning… ask HIM feeling better? …. Till now.. not yet reply….

Nothing to HIM, Cruel to Me

Yesterday lunch time… I bring the mp3 cd to HIM … & bring HIM flu medicine & herbs tea (leong cha) … waited HIM near the LRT station at 1.00pm …. 1.15pm HE came out … walk pass my car without notice me … go str8 to take LRT back to work ……… >.<” I know HE will be a bit late to work jor…. But no need forgot me waiting there gua… … … …

At nite… a fren ask me …. Did HE take the medicine…. I dunno… I dun wan ask….

HE din miss call me at 11pm something… I assumed HE sleep & rest jor … I goto bed at 12.00am …… at 1.12am … HE miss call me….. I blur blur & tot HIS flu maybe getting worst…. Called back…. The way HE answered I know HE is feeling better jor … I agak agak know HE wanna talk about relationship things….

HE told me this evening got a fren goto HIS place take bath … coz the fren’s place dun hv water heater…. …. HIS fren bath 1^st … then HE bath later… HE say the fren kind of “jokingly” try to pull HIS tower when HE go back to HIS room… :x HE din go dinner with this fren coz got some other ppl joining the dinner…

HE say HE called the other fren that HE sensed both of them got feel towards each other… tat time .. tat fren quarrelling with his bf…. HE say tat fren oredi hv the preparation tat the bf gonna break with him …. They sms …. HE say finally this fren admitted hv feelings towards HIM …. I dunno HE is happy about tat or feel confuse about tat… but I guess shud be happy gua … HE say got many things wanna talk to me… but HE really tired jor … I ask HIM go rest…

I dunno wat’s between HIS fren & the bf problems… I know HE did gave his fren advice on the relationship problem… this fren kind of like HIS thinking …. wat I felt uncomfortable…. Is tat … a person sense his bf wanna break… at the same time he so fast got feel with another person…. Haiz….. plu life…. Maybe I m bias … most plu … when wanna break with bf … will get him self another potential bf as a replacement….

I dun wanna give any advice on a relationship tat I only know 1 party… I will get bias … coz I just listening to 1 party talking… previously I do give advice just based on 1 party talking … Until I know … when WE break… HE says HE did ask HIS frens’ opinion tat shud HE break with me…. tat time I was so furious …… HIS frens dun even know me… How can just based on 1 party talking then they sentenced my relationship to death …… I dun wanna be like tat… unless I know both party… then oni I will give specific de advice lor …. :p

But many situation is tat … the fren who talking to u about his problem …. He oredi make the decision …. He just need a fren to support the decision…

After I hang up the phone last nite….. kind of hard to fall a sleep…. Maybe HE felt nothing coz I told HIM b4 talk to me when ever HE wanna talk about anything ….. but now I felt kind of cruel to my self …. When a person u like… talking about the person he like…. :x

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Congrats to few of my frens, one by one, found the rite person …. J

Happy for them…. But dun got bf no fren wor ;p

LaLa Gathering

Sat nite….. lala gathering…. From 1.30am – 5.00am….. =.-“ haha … all so bian tai …. No need sleep de…. :p

Sleep from 6.30am – 12.45pm …. Lucky can sleep 6 hours…. If not sure die… 2 days oso sleep less ……

Then watch drama…. Hehe…. Watching till eyes oso wanna drop out …. Finally finish the HK drama… Gam Ji Yuk Yip episode 26- 30 … then continue watch Anime… Naturo episode 1 – 8 ….. then continue Gundam Seed Destiny episode 34 – 35 … then Yakitate Japan (King bread baker of Japen) episode 1 – 2…..

Whole day at home … watch till 10.20pm … HE miss call… I called back …. HE say not feeling well… fall sick jor … got flu … I ask HIM take care lor …. Eat medicine on time… ask HIM fast fast take bath then go rest …

Around 11.30pm…. sms HIM…. Anything call me if need help ….

Monday morning …. sms HIM ask HIM feeling better… HE say better jor.. going to class liao …. After class will goto work … HE ask for the mp3 cd… I say I will pass to HIM this afternoon after HIS class….

Karaoke

Went karaoke with Vans …. 1.15am – 4am ….. just 2 persons…. Muahahaha….. no need to fight for the mic to sing…. Pai she…. Coz fly key when singing …. *^-^* got buffet eat~ … hehehe…. So full …. Not bad … although not many choices for the buffet like hotel…. But it has enough quantity for all customers…. J

Went back home oredi 4.20mins… on9 kacao ppl who is away in IRC… Orange zai still there…. Kacao him a while… then he go off9 jor….

Skype~ …. Lolx…. 5 ppl skyping…. Vans, Mimi, Eth, Sotong and me…. so terrible…. These ppl no need sleep de…. :p we play true or dare …. Haha… ask tricky questions… so nottie de they all…. :x ….. me so cham… at the beginning .. always kena me de…. =.-“ after change few times nick name then oni can get away the curse~!! Wakakaka ….

Played till 7.00am …. Then goto bed at 7.20am coz need bath bath…. Woke up at 11.15am …. Slept less than 4 hours…. cham …. L

12.00pm …. Fetch mum to work…. Then wait at office ….. sms HIM …. Asking HIM after HIS exam wanna watch movie mar? If HE got other plan then nvm…. J waiting HIS reply now……….

17th Movie: Batman Begins

17^th Movie: Batman Begins * * * *

Super nice …. Difference from previous Batman movies….. This movie is more to reality. No too fancy… not too cartoons…. This movie covered how actually Batman appeared compare to all previous Batman movies just briefly intro the background of Batman. Batman is the super hero with no super power. He is the most human being super hero. Hehe… that is why I choose Batman as my pic in MSN :p ngek ngek …. The actions in the movie is nice…. Animations looks so real….. J

Looking forward to next week….. Initail D .. & Hitchaker ……

17/06/05

Later, I think after HIS class... HE sms... saying HE felt guilty making me unhappy, and I might think tat HE take HIS frens more important than me then oni HE forget to inform me... but it is really due to HIS busy arrangement. HE says although I did say forgive HIM, but I still mind a lot.... HE say it's ok lor, HE dun wanna disturb me so much jor... coz ppl might say HE is using other ppl. HE really did planned to call me this morning...

Now the situation become worst.... at first oni because just a small matters ... din inform the lunch cancel on time.... now become .... HE mind tat ppl think HE is using me to help HIM .... ok then .... I shud accept the fate.... to let HIM feel better.... I shud not get close to HIM... to avoid ppl say HE is just using me..... now HE got frens in kl .... I shud not worry about HIM anymore.... or not to worry too much ... :x

Fong Fei Kei

Wednesday nite…. After chat on phone with HIM …. HE miss call back…. I call HIM again…. HE say wanna hv lunch on Friday…. After HIS class… I say ok…

Thursday nite back from movie…. Fast fast rearrange all the mp3 & burn into CD … wanna past to HIM on Friday …. Happy~ J

Friday morning .. go back to office .. fast fast type all the songs title & print out … type half way…. I call HIM to confirm today lunch …. I tot I dun wanna call de… but six sense tell me …. Something wrong… I shud call ….. so I called … HE say… “today I hv lunch with other frens wor” ….. I speechless….. I say “Nvm… ok.. bye” …. HE say “wei… u angry ar?” ….. I say “ya… u shud hv told me….” …. HE say “soli ar.. plz dun angry lar….” …. I tot wanna hang the phone… but too childish jor….. I say “no lar.. no angry lar.. nvm … no angry liao…”

After hang up… I sms HIM “I am not angry becoz U dun hv lunch with me. I just disappointed U din tell me earlier… coz If I dun call just now, I will str8 away wait U at UR college. The taste of been ffk is no nice. Next time tell me earlier lor.” ….. while typing the sms…. Listening to Yu Hen de Shen Hu Xi .. when come to the part…. Yan lei kai shi da zhuan~~ …… my tears really around my eyes rolling …. Coz felt I m just a not important to HIM ….. ……… ………………. Msg sent ……

After a while HE replied… “sorry wor…. Make u unhappy jor… actually plan to call u this morning but last nite a fren (a gal) overnite at my place so not convenient to call lor. Plz accept my apology. To9 can look 4 me mou? Wanna pay back to topup card $ oso.”

I replied … “ok lor… U treat me 1 meal lor…. To9 dun wanna kacao U. next time lor. U sleep early to9….. tomolo exam good luck.”

HE call while otw to college in LRT.. .. I call back …. HE say soli again… & say if I still angry HE will not able to do revision oh…. & told me why HIS fren overnite at HIS place … coz her roommate bring bf back… she cant sleep well… so she ask HIM can overnite at HIS place mou? … HE ask wanna dinner to9…… I say dun wan … 1^st time I reject HIM without other plan to9 (last time even I got other plan, I oso will cancel tat plan to meet with HIM .. :p) …. I say “next time lar.. tml exam U sleep early…” …

I din tell HIM …. Actually I wanna pass HIM the mp3 cd today lunch de….. so tat HE can do revision while listening to some songs tat HE wanted…..

After hang up……. I m telling my self …… I wont offer to ask HIM out jor .. since HE got many frens jor…. No need me jor ….. . I shud steel my heart towards HIM (铁了心) …. …………… YA …. I shud …… wake up… (can I do it? …. Dunno…. Just do it like Nike lor)….. :p