Half Way de Blog

Last nite around 11pm HE say wanna hv dinner tonite... I know HE wanna celebrate birthday with me... but after that around 11.45pm HE say might be able to make it... coz still not sure HE is able to finish HIS work. Frankly speaking... I was disappointed.

Lucky got Orange zai chat with me hor~... hehe.... to cheer me... :p

Around 12am something goto bed... hardly can sleep leh... Roll roll roll ... till 1.45am half slept half awake …. Heard got sms…. Dun bother…. :p continue sleep …. 1.55am…. phone call …. =.-“ A long time din chat de fren call …. Say he wanna come over yam cha now find me yam cha ….. I was like * doink * ….. What time liao… 2am… I was struggling till nearly fall a sleep ….. >.<>

oops.... write till hv way... so ngam... vans call.... lolz..... chit chat 1st.... :X

Unexpected de Lunch

Today will not watch movie with Fansu at KLCC .... coz got extra ppl tat I dunno de will join .... so I dun wanna join lor.. Lucky I din join oh... coz suddenly extra 2 ppl become extra 4 ppl.... =.-"

so will just jln jln with Fansu at KLCC .... then hv lunch with Him.... :) still looking forward de....
Talk talk talk with Fansu .... Fansu so talkative de.... Ji Ji za za non stop .... lolx .... good to hv Fansu around ... sometime quite jor ... then tease tease Fansu.. lolx ... so funny ... :p

Finally time to hv lunch lor..... hehe.... feel like looking forward mar..... coz long time din see Him jor :p ... then suddenly see..... he bring 1 colleague 2gether.... *doink* tot can just 3 of us de mar.... sigh .. nvm lar.. then see his colleague so fren with Him.... felt a bit ... ........ :(

Then suddenly Fansu say Pepsi gonna join in too .... *doink doink*

Tot can hv 1 hour lunch with happy chatting de mar... but end up... quiet quiet lor ... aiks .... just my problem lar... not comfortable with unexpected ppl lor .... dunno I got face black black or not? lolx .... if got then sowee to Fansu oh~ :p

After lunch I just go home lor~ walking out with Him and his colleague.... see he & his colleague talking oni .... :( ... i think this time i got face black black .... :p walk till the concourse floor ... I just say bye ... then goto parking lor...... with the heart sour sour .....

Yam Cha at Halo Cafe

Went to yam cha at Halo Cafe in OUG with Pangtin & his sai lous ... the singer in the cafe not really good .... last time there got a gal preformer sound like Fish Leong de.... now change to all male group... lolx.. but the guitar player not bad.... can sing well ... the other 2 a bit char lor....

Back home oredi 1.15am lor~ ..... on9 a while .... skype with Fansu & Paikia ... hehe.... until 2am.... then goto bed .... b4 goto bed... felt a bit emptiness .... sms Vans & Common lor... both oso not yet sleep ... hehe..... but sms few sms i oredi felt sleepy .... lolz.... sowee ...... beh tahan... so tell them I sleep 1st .... tomolo can hv lunch with Him & Fansu.... :)

15th Movie

Today go for 6.30pm de movie.... oni fong gong at 5.20pm... wah ... fast fast rush home take bath.... then go out..... lucky reach sunway 6.20pm... lolx ... still can make it.... :p

15th Movie: House of Wax * * *

Nicer than the Chucky... a lot more ... at least most horror/violent scenes still remain .... :) some scenes really make me felt cold..... like the finger been cut by the spanner.... aisk.... so painful....
Horror movie... always leng zai die 1st .... so ke lian ... :( Overall the movie still ok lar... not too boring ... hehe.... got leng zai mar :x

This Sunday will go movie with Fansu and Pepsi.... Morning will jln jln with Fansu 1st ... then around show time then oni pepsi join in ... dun feel like wanna meet ppl de.... but nvm lar.... since just meet short while then go in to cinema jor.... :p

26/05/2005

How to be happy? Forget all the unhappy things.... then can be more happy... How to forget unhappy things? Think of happy things lor... keep on repeating... lolx ... finally oso no answer....

Next week will turn 30 years old lor~ cham.... become uncle jor.. *sob sob sob* .... Last time use kl29chi nickname in IRC... hehe... then change to Mkey this year... coz kl30chi so old jor mar... :p
this few days can use back kl29chi .... lolx... after birthday cannot use anymore lor~ but since change nick to Mkey no one come chat with me oso..... :( maybe use kl30chi business will be better... lolx

Long time no do exercise jor .... sigh .. so lazy.... no more slim fit jor .... just slim oni ... :p
cannot cannot........ must do exercise jor..... must eat a lot more too.... u all must remind me to eat more lolx .... coz i really eat little at dinner time.... sigh... :(

KL-JB-SG-JB-KL

JB trip 21/05/05

Supposed to take 3.30pm de bus to JB … but the bus delayed jor to 4.00pm … t.t

Reached JB oredi 9.00pm liao… thanks to Shinji & his fren picked us at the Larkin bus station … & Thanks to mimi goto accompanied us to the place we wanna go… :x

After supper … back hotel around 3.00am ….

SG trip 22/05/05

Went to Orchard Road, Sg, at around 2.00pm…. Walk around… see people… :p saw a lot of plu or should say AJ … hehe…. Most youngster there dressed well …. So everyone looks nice… saw a boy looks like the Leo in Rice Rhapsody … ngek ngek … cute J

Really walk till legs pain …. Back to JB around 10.00pm …. Then take bath at hotel… goto Danga Bay to hv dinner…. environment there is nice … but the food is just so so … :p

Rushed to Red Box karaoke :X .. but late jor…. Dun hv room … waited till 1.30am then sing till 3.00am…. din sing much…. Coz tired jor… & cannot open sound…. Lolx~ sing like chicken voice :x

KL 23/05/05

Took 10.00am de bus back to KL….. reached kl around 3.15pm …. Reached home around 4.00pm ….

On the way back to kl... in the bus.... my mind automatic thinking a lot about H.... cant stop it.... sigh .... thinking how nice ... if this trip we were going 2gether... :( start imagine things.... :p

Best Star Wars Episode

14^th Movie : Star Wars 3 Revenge of the Sith * * * *

The best Star Wars episode in the series …. Nice story line, Nice animations, Nice cast, the story was well been directed …..

Love Hayden (Anakin Skywalker)…. Muahahaha …… but I feel he is still young ….. could not expressed the feeling of hatred …. Near the end of the movie…. Anakin Skywalker shouted “I HATE YOU” to Obi Wan Kenobi…. I felt that the expression is like a kid shouted that out… and that’s not truly hatred .. but just a person fat pei hei …. Hehe ….

So ngam…… saw Randie in the Sunway Cinema… lolx~ he oso watch Star wars 3 ….with his “fren” ngek ngek ngek …. :p

Saw Nc oso …. Haha…..

Me started update my mandarin blog oso jor~ .. hehe…. Those not banana go support yar~? Hehe ……

Skype failed .....

Yesterday I say wanna give Fansu lecture …. Hehe.. but din hv … just joking with Fansu oni …. :p

But now after Fansu read this …. Dunno Fansu will give Mike lecture mou? >.<”

Finally the moment come liao …. H met a new colleague on Monday …. The type that make him felt shy to talk to… the type that he will make him face red red ….. the type that is leng zai ….. …… ………. …………… ……………… …………………….

I hv been waiting this moment ….. although now they just met…. Veli soon … they will become …. Erm… dunno … haha…. Coz not yet confirm tat person is PLU …. But H felt he is…

Listening H talking about they having lunch 2gether…. going home with same LRT 2gether ….. sigh ….. still cannot take it like nothing lor …..

The heart still will ….. how to say leh…. Kick zhu kick zhu lor …..

Skype sing Happy Birthday song to Paikia last nite at 12am ….

After tat …. Skype with common … wanna tell common last nite the feeling… but too many ppl jor …. Not convenience….. am I good in acting Common boy ?…. Act like nothing ….. hehe ….

Moody … goto bed about 12.40am …. Heart still kick zhu kick zhu …. Tears drop out…. …. cant fall sleep ….. count ants to sleep….. 1 ant 2 ants 3 ants …….. blur blur till sleep jor…. Hehe… :p

What I want now

A fren asked me …… still looking for young boiboi? :p My answer is no … If I want a young boiboi … I only want my ex, H. Then wat now? Erm….. now prefer a more adult boiboi gua …. The best will be above 24 years old lor…… but under this range of age would be the best time to flirt around…. They will not looking a boring old man like me …. L

A fren said to me…. walao! U still love ur ex ar?!! Dun be stupid ler~! Open ur heart to others lar ...….. My answer is I still like him not love ….. like & love is 2 different thing ….. Yes I very much wanna love him .. but that is not rite now ….. I can onli like him now. Open my heart to others? The problem is no others wanna come to me….. so how to open my heart leh~!

A fren asked me ….. what is the meaning of life? What is my purpose of living? … very difficult to answer….. I told him…. The motivation of living to each ppl is different …. Some ppl’s motivation/target/purpose can be gain through hard work… like Money …. Some ppl’s motivation/target/purpose of living can just depends on fate… like Love ……. Mine shud be the later ….. I wan a long last love…

Dun ask me am I happy now? Well…. If u wanna ask oso can … :p the answer is no… but life still go on …. I wonder would it be happier for those who often flirt around or just want a short-term relationship…… sigh …. Then wat is meaning of life ? confuse jor :p

I m str8 now :p

Boring Saturday …. Goto saloon sit for about 3 hours to do a re-bonding to str8ten my hair .. :p oredi not much hair still go do str8tening …. Muahahaha …. Now my hair looks really thin jor … hehe…. Nvm lar…. New look mar …. If ppl say ugly then go cut botak next month :p

Just downloading MP3 at home on Sat & Sun … Hard to find old song in MP3 format … mostly in WMA file …… so need to download a converter to convert WMA file to MP3 file ….

Movie's Time...

13^th Movie : Seed of Chucky * *

Many many flaws in the movie…. No big celebrity, No great animation effects …. & many bloody scenes has been censored ….

If u got nothing to do… & u have watched all the others movies showing now…. Then u may watch this movie to “entertain” ur self ;p

Disappointed..

When you treat ppl nice with sincere heart …. But ppl listen to other ppl gossip & come questioned you …. Walao … so hurt …. Almost cry yesterday ….. but I be able to hold back the tear…

I dunno what other ppl think of me for how I treat H after broke… I know I hv done my best to care him & help him when ever he needed help ….

The story goes like this … H wanna buy a mp3/cd discman …. So we plan to go buy yesterday … & last two days I was busy downloading some mp3 & wanna burn into cd for him … so tat he can listen to those song that he like after get the mp3 discman … so looking forward to pass him the cd… J just left one song yesterday (Mariah Carey – Through the Rain) … wah~ … need to rush rush rush…. Coz H will come find me at 7pm yesterday… asking help from Yuanfen, Fansu and Puppy to help me get the mp3 …

Finally Puppy say he got it… happy~ …. So puppy send me the file in msn … then I goto bath … after bath .. oredi 6.30pm jor … look at the msn … OH NO! failed jor…. Cham cham cham ….. & puppy off line oredi …. Sob sob sob … search search search~ …. Finally managed to download the file from the net… yeah~! …. Fast fast burn into cd … 6.45pm jor… rush to LRT station wait for H ….

H arrived … black face … asked him wat happened … he said quarreled with his colleague just now … coz his colleague talk bad him …. Saying that H is using me after we broke …. And say some other not nice things … then H question me … do I felt tat way oso … that he is using me … I felt quite sad he asking me tat …. So I quiet a while & say no… I don’t ….. H suddenly said …. Drop him back to LRT station .. .. he wanna go home now… I ask him why… ? He fatt pei hei & said … I hesitate to answer him just now … sure I felt tat he is using me… …. & he felt all ppl wanna treat him bad.. coz he is all alone in kl … no family members to protect him here …. I explained that no.. I didn’t felt tat way … I din hesitate .. I just felt sad to answer coz he come questioned my sincerity to him just based on ppl gossip ……… after answered that …. My tear start gather around my eyes coz felt so yun wong ….. so I just keep quiet … coz wanna hold back the tear :p

H felt soli … & ask me y so quiet … I say .. nothing …… after finally hold back the tear.. I start the conversation again …. I told him .. I treat him good coz I like him … If I felt he is using me…. I will not come out see him ..… & I felt disappointed he dun trust me .. .. H felt bad & apologize … then he scared me will misunderstand … he mentioned to me that …. Even I treated him how good now … doesn’t mean he will give me chance to kao him back…. I say I knew tat … :p & I knew he just treat me as fren only …

After the atmosphere getting warm again …. We start teasing each other again like b4 …. J

We go dinner & go buy the mp3 discman ……. & sent him back …. He say soli to me again b4 going back home…..

I reached home about 10.30pm ………… no mood to chat… just staring at the IRC channel…. Spying ppl chatting ….. a bit moody …. Dun wanna influence other ppl become moody like the other day … :p

Goto bed around 11.45pm ……. Din sleep well … so slept a bit late this morning … ngek ngek ngek ….

Today will go movie with my best movie pal … J

Stress ~~

These few days felt depressed …. Cant sleep well ….

Coz mum keep nagging about my hair … dunno izzit been nagged too much … I begin to worry veli much jor … then couldn’t sleep well…. So cham…

Veli ‘fan’ ….. dun be surprised you will see a botak Mike soon …. Coz if I still felt veli frustrated I will go cut botak completely …. Then will nothing to ‘fan’ jor…. Just scared that my structure of the skull no nice to cut botak..… T.T

Dunno cut botak jor …will look more man or not? Muahahaha :p

Last nite went out with H…. for about 2 weeks din see him…. Sum tong … tat he slim jor … more sum tong he look at me like looking at a monster… dunno izzit me too sensitive…

After went back home… no mood .. luan luan fat pei hei & make a fren in IRC no mood jor…. So Sowee to him ~ … :p

Empty Blog ……

Nothing much happen …. Life is as usual…. Work .. online… eat… sleep…. Din go out watch movie or yam cha for more than a week jor~….. Din go find HIM for more than a week oso….. :p

Yer~~ today go check my bank acct… the salary cheque not need cleared~! …. I din bring the bank-in slip… so cannot goto check with the bank…. T.T

Monday oni can go check… sob sob sob ……… so ke lian~…..

A bit addicted to use skype to chat liao …. Coz can hear voice directly & funny reaction oso …. Hehe…. No need to type … ngek ngek .. lazy mar :p

But actually I oso din talk much in skype… just listen to ppl talking … J Then just add some comment lor….

So many "y" ... till me oso blur jor... hehe..

Today is a special day for me oh~ …. :p

Y special ? Coz today is the 7 weeks broke up anniversary lor …. Y 7 weeks so special? Coz the relationship oni last 7 weeks lor …. :p

Y wanna remember such a occasion? Coz nothing to do and no new relationship lor …. Y don have new relationship? Coz I m not ready gua …. Not ready to accept anyone lor …

Y not ready wor? Coz dun have confident lor…. It’s not about confident on the outlook, it’s the confident from other ppl give to me… the confident that the person say likes me….

Y wanna doubt ppl de confident wor? Coz I doubt ppl will like me lor … there r so many choices out there… I got nothing special to keep their heart …. I m just a normal ppl with a kind heart (this is the oni thing I got and nothing to be proud of … coz I think everyone oso can be kind if they want to)… so those good looking with kind heart always out there for grab ….

Do I still sad after 7 weeks? Erm…. I m not sad liao .. but there r moments tat make me feel down lor … :p

Will I accept Him back, if he wanna be with me again? Erm………. All I can say is that … That will not happen … coz he wont come back… as I say … too many choices out there….

Skype

OMG~… now oni I realized now many hair I drop after take bath … cannot liao ….. so cham… will be botak soon if continue like this …. T.T …… need to go Yun Nam jor…. Sob sob sob ….. waiting a fren pui me go… coz I dunno reject ppl when ppl keep promote their products… sigh…. Dunno when this fren free…. ?? cham cham cham …… nvm lar…. Worse come to worse … mar cut botak lor…. Maybe botak I look sexy … wakakaka…. :p

Felt a bit down during nite time… coz H stop the habit to call me at nite jor …. Sigh …. I oso dun wanna kacau him so often … so I will call him once every 2 days … just to see he is doing ok … :p

On Sunday nite, skype with a few frens in IRC de ….. 1^st time hear Jlo & Common de voice… erm …. Jlo de voice is veli “real” … U will know wat’s his facial reaction through his voice ….. Common de voice is so cute… J really sound like another friend…. Make he confuse sometimes… hehe ….. Paikia aka Kenny aka Raymond was the host for the skype conference … & Miyake join the chat later on… Most 38 is Jlo…. He got the talent to rap songs… keep it up … yo yo yo …~ …. Wakakaka….

Now not oni Fansu de name appeared in Mkey de blog liao …. Hehe…. Many many ppl appeared oso jor…. Hahaha. …..

Monday replacement holiday, …. Mum keep nagging I on9 liao 36 hours non stop :x … so I tabao KFC curry goto office on9…. Wakakakaka….. not bad oh…. The KFC curry … much much better then KFC Spicy …. :p wah .. help KFC promote …. Dunno they will give me commission boh?

Monday nite…. 1^st time hear OZ de voice… walao … so man~… hahaha….

So short de Blog?

Wednesday till Friday oso din back office.... so cant write blog in the early morning at office.... :p Got function at the hotel.....

I hv actually written few pages de blog at the hotel there while boring de.... but now lazy to type all liao .... hehe.... just cut short all the sentences... & give oni summary :p

How would you felt if you heard ur ex console his fren that just break up? How would you felt if you heard you ex telling him "dun took it so seriously...., nothing is forever....., this is your 1st relationship, learn from it... in future you will hv a better one....... etc etc ... "

I know when you console a person... you will say anything to make him feel better....

But I still felt a bit uncomfortable... when I heard tat from him..... Maybe I m too sensitive liao ... but you know ler.... dunno how to say...... Fansu will understand :x .... hehe.... :p Fansu read liao Mkey's blog... manage to catch exactly wat my mind thinking :x ..... so li hai ....

But I m ok lar .... I always managed to think of some thing to make my self let go when I felt uncomfortable.... :) Just tat I hvn't make my self not to feel uncomfortable in the 1st place nia ..... :x .... well.... maybe till I numb liao.. then I will feel nothing gua....

Car Accident (26/04/05)

Sigh ..... veli hak zai today.... CAR ACCIDENT~...... raining at nite, the car in front of me suddently emergency brake... walao.... I fast fast brake too ... but too late liao... the car still move... even I step the brake pedal completely.... "Bang"! .... :(

Luckily the ppl inside does not injure...

Not too serious accident .... but oso repaired liao RM400 .... sigh... so ke lian... so more need to repair ppl damages... RM200 .. coz I hit ppl bumber mar .....

When the car cant stop & banging the other car tat time.... I was thinking.... "let me die lar...." sigh... so pessimistic in life hor.... this is bad... so dun learn this :p ..... But when the car hit the other car that time... I think of the other way liao ... "plz dun be too serious ar~.... minor accident enough liao ..." ... because there is someone next to me.... I cant let anything happen with him ar... if wanna die oso me die oni... but if me die... means it's a serious accident... the person next to me oso will injure... so.. Tat cant happen ar... fast fast pray liao .... O Mi To Fu ....

Who's beside me? .... mar HIM lor... :p Lukily no one injure... it was actually just a minor accident...