Thursday, May 12, 2005

Disappointed..

When you treat ppl nice with sincere heart …. But ppl listen to other ppl gossip & come questioned you …. Walao … so hurt …. Almost cry yesterday ….. but I be able to hold back the tear…

I dunno what other ppl think of me for how I treat H after broke… I know I hv done my best to care him & help him when ever he needed help ….

The story goes like this … H wanna buy a mp3/cd discman …. So we plan to go buy yesterday … & last two days I was busy downloading some mp3 & wanna burn into cd for him … so tat he can listen to those song that he like after get the mp3 discman … so looking forward to pass him the cd… J just left one song yesterday (Mariah Carey – Through the Rain) … wah~ … need to rush rush rush…. Coz H will come find me at 7pm yesterday… asking help from Yuanfen, Fansu and Puppy to help me get the mp3 …

Finally Puppy say he got it… happy~ …. So puppy send me the file in msn … then I goto bath … after bath .. oredi 6.30pm jor … look at the msn … OH NO! failed jor…. Cham cham cham ….. & puppy off line oredi …. Sob sob sob … search search search~ …. Finally managed to download the file from the net… yeah~! …. Fast fast burn into cd … 6.45pm jor… rush to LRT station wait for H ….

H arrived … black face … asked him wat happened … he said quarreled with his colleague just now … coz his colleague talk bad him …. Saying that H is using me after we broke …. And say some other not nice things … then H question me … do I felt tat way oso … that he is using me … I felt quite sad he asking me tat …. So I quiet a while & say no… I don’t ….. H suddenly said …. Drop him back to LRT station .. .. he wanna go home now… I ask him why… ? He fatt pei hei & said … I hesitate to answer him just now … sure I felt tat he is using me… …. & he felt all ppl wanna treat him bad.. coz he is all alone in kl … no family members to protect him here …. I explained that no.. I didn’t felt tat way … I din hesitate .. I just felt sad to answer coz he come questioned my sincerity to him just based on ppl gossip ……… after answered that …. My tear start gather around my eyes coz felt so yun wong ….. so I just keep quiet … coz wanna hold back the tear :p

H felt soli … & ask me y so quiet … I say .. nothing …… after finally hold back the tear.. I start the conversation again …. I told him .. I treat him good coz I like him … If I felt he is using me…. I will not come out see him ..… & I felt disappointed he dun trust me .. .. H felt bad & apologize … then he scared me will misunderstand … he mentioned to me that …. Even I treated him how good now … doesn’t mean he will give me chance to kao him back…. I say I knew tat … :p & I knew he just treat me as fren only …

After the atmosphere getting warm again …. We start teasing each other again like b4 …. J

We go dinner & go buy the mp3 discman ……. & sent him back …. He say soli to me again b4 going back home…..

I reached home about 10.30pm ………… no mood to chat… just staring at the IRC channel…. Spying ppl chatting ….. a bit moody …. Dun wanna influence other ppl become moody like the other day … :p

Goto bed around 11.45pm ……. Din sleep well … so slept a bit late this morning … ngek ngek ngek ….

Today will go movie with my best movie pal … J

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