No Blog.... just other ppl de article :p

Now reading a mandarin book with the title PLU …. One of the title of the articles is quite similar to my 1^st blog title :p ….. my blog title is 7 weeks =/= 7 years ….. that article is 8 years ; 8 days ……

My blog is trying to bring out that why my relationship was just last 7 weeks & it’s oredi like 7 years to me… & why it cannot last 7 years …. L

That article is saying …. Although you like a person for 8 years & finally you have the opportunity to go into his room …. But not long after tat, he bring another person who hv only known for 8 days into his room too ….. Love does not count by who know who first, love does not count by you know him longer time than others …. If another person is more click with him.. he will walk away with that person without second thought … although he might felt regret to dump you …. But he will walk away happily with that little bit of regret….. this often happen among the younger generation, they are more into 8 days … not 8 years … they don’t even mind if they only can love for 8 days……..

* doink * *doink * …… it’s like a baseball stick hits on my head… asking me “wake up” !! ;p

Two movies in One day

Thursday... public holiday... nice~ went for movie in Mid Valley .... as expected so many ppl..... luckily got parking angel came out help me find parking... :)

11st Movie : The Jacket * * * *

Nice~ .... story not bad ...... explained the story quite well ..... of coz with some flaws... hehe ..... Adrien Brody really good in acting..... & leng zai too ...... walao.... his smile really kills me... :x


12nd Movie: Rice Rhapsody * * * ½

About a single mum with 3 PLU sons .....
Worth a watch. Some parts of the movie really fits the PLU circle .... Got a scene 2 PLU wearing hot pants...... =.-" really beh tahan~ ..... How nice if our mum or parents will be tat understanding.....

The actor, Leo (Tan LePham), some of his small movements reminds me about H :Þ The way he bite his lips, the way he 皱眉头, his eyesbrow, & his cool face looking from the side .......

What next .. continue ….

After join back IRC…. I only know GM channel…. Communicated with 1 26 yrs old mix Malay – Chinese for few mths …. He ask to meet for few times … I rejected …. Finally 1 fine day.. we meet up… same as few years ago…. fetched ppl after work back to his home…. At 1^st just watch tv at the living room…. Then he invited me to “visit” his room….. wat next?? ….. end up tfk lor….. NO anal :p >.< really cant goto ppl house went meet up …. Sure something will happen… after tat I never keep in touch with him jor… OMG~ this is my “first ONS” and will be the last ….. nottie nottie~! Piakz piakz me again~….. T.T

Then after tat I join CP channel… so din join GM channel any more…. Thx to CP hong pai ah gu ask me to join :p CP really more friendly …. J more pure ppl…. Coz all young young de…. :p but not new to plu life…. Coz mostly oredi got how many how many ex jor ….. =.-""

Make good frens in CP …. & appreciate the friendship J

I was thinking .. maybe I can find my true love here….. maybe I can find a bf that still “fresh” not been polluted too much…. & I treat him real nice… cares him make him feels hang fook …. Then we might hv chance to be together forever…. Of coz the main thing is that I must likes him & him must like me too …. Finally I hv found H …. & the rest of the story u all shud know liao …. :p

Back to my fren’s 2^nd part of the question “hv I move on?” ….. really not easy for me to move on… coz for this 1^st relationship of my life… accumulated 29 years of love…. all put into this relationship…. When it’s over… 29 years of love died with it….. what next? ….. I really dunno …. Love no more … just pain left over ……

1 more mth plus ….. will be officially turning 30 yrs old….. so old jor~ L my last year birthday wish came true….. but din last forever ….. What next this year? ……………..

What Next….?

A fren ask me, “any target? Hv you move on?”. I only answered him the 1st part …. Which is “nope” ….. 2nd part of the question…. I cleverly changed the topic :p muahahaha ….. coz I know ppl will scold me for my stubbornness…..

I dun understand why plu relationship cannot compare with str8 relationship. For str8 couples, they will settled down & get married after 28 yrs old (guy) & after 25 yrs old (gal). Their mutual understanding is after pak tor will get marry.

For plu relationship is wat? Mutual understanding for pak tor is to hv sex? Or really for long term relationship.. ? Does plu knows wat is long term relationship? Wat’s the definition for long term? Few weeks? Few months? Few years? Or forever? …… I hv been reading those plu profile in axcest & fridae ….. no doubt… many seeking long term relationship…. & many stated their experiences … saying they are sad or disappointed with plu life….. hv tried many times in relationships but failed…. Any true love? …… looking at the current trend….. more & more plu coming out…. & more young each time…. That’s a 13 yrs old kid join cp channel…. >.<>.<) Until I hv access to internet (tat was around 17 yrs old), then only I get to know some plu fren…. But just communicated through e-mail… & never meet them … I only met the 1st plu fren which oredi keep in touch for a year at 24 yrs old … he was 22 yrs old…. tat time we actually date for movie…. He come look for me after work then I sent him home to take bath 1st then only we go movie … I think I m very brave tat time… coz I went to his room the 1st time we met… then … things get started… *^-^* he started touch my back…. I was stunned at 1st … but at the end … start got “high” … paiseh … We end up s**k each other…. He requested to anal me… I rejected….. & he ask me to anal him …. Which I rejected too …. It really goes too far jor… tat’s really not I expected …. We stop doing wat we doing … without cum :p then we go dinner and movie… after tat day…. I seldom keep in touch with him liao… coz I was guilty about myself… how can I did tat~ OMG~ 1st time meet then …did tat thing… !! .. I know with the age of 24yrs old… I can do wat ever lar …. But… …… ….. shame on me lor…. Piakz piakz my self… T.T

Tat’s actually wat I so call “puppy love” to me… coz that’s the onli plu that I met until last year when I join back IRC…. I got told some of my fren tat b4 this I got a one year plus puppy love…. :x but they dunno the one year is actually communicate by e-mail & met oni once .. ;p only those read my blog knows now …. Muahahaha….

Of coz there are few other plu e-mail pals that communicated for years & mths …. But never meet… and now quiet jor…. No more contact… L

What next….? Continue next time….. the story after joint back to IRC….. :p

Just Another Weekend~

Saturday had late lunch, around 3.30pm ... so cant eat dinner so early at home.... & Sunday mum din cook..... so Saturday & Sunday nite oso dinner with H.... :)

Sunday nite.... can see H not so happy .... coz he saw his ex at his work place.... he said dunno y he likes him last time.... & he dunno whether he really liked him b4.... I just listen....

H say got colleague around his work place ask for his phone no..... say wanna date him for tea ........ erm... nothing much I can say .... just listen only plus bitter smile.... :s

Yesterday was the day I met H in KL for 3 mths.... & we broke 1 mth & 4 days.... still treasure him a lot.... still care a lot.......................... izzit I really need another love to forget this love?

Really envy Mimi's bf... coz managed attached back with Mimi.... & Sebs oso attached liao... you guys happy ler~ :) Congrats de....

This Thursday is public holiday~ hurray~!

Beautiful Washing Machine

Friday nite went for movie with Yuanfen.

10th Movie : Beautiful Washing Machine * * *

Quite disappointed with the movie.... many flaws in the movie.... really makes you laugh a lot when you hear the telephone conversation in the movie.... and those supporting actors/actresses really sucks~! Is the director try to become Malaysian Tsai Ming Liang?

If we just watch the movie like normal movie.... what we get will be .... man always treat woman as their slave ... like to order them do this do that... & the beautiful washing machine always obey the man's order .... so that's y all the male actors fallen in to her.... The movie actually oso bring up some hidden message of PLU....

Quoted some review from the newspaper about this movie:

(引人兴趣的是电影中的“同志色彩”。男人在一起就互相抽烟，而直直一条的香烟明显的有男人性器官的象征，一起吸烟陶醉其中。相等于是互相露宝“欣赏”，衔在口中更是一种意淫。
较有争论性的倒是电影中出现的4个“老青少”男人都是衣柜里的同志吗？其中张家扬饰演的黄先生带上咸蛋超人的面具对镜练身、进入神秘女子的房间而无所为，同时观看男同性感色情片，已是“明目张胆”的点到黄先生的同志身份。
在电影前段的年轻人小张，又很明显的被影射为黄先生“以前年轻时”，尤其是片末短短一组镜头，从黄先生的后院抚到前廊看到“已逝”的小张在吸烟，他们是在同一间屋子，这证明小张也是同志。
黄先生女儿的男友阿叶和黄先生的儿子是不是同志呢？黄先生虽然明白阿叶是怎么样的人（抽烟同好），所以为女儿担心，阿叶逃避陪伴女友而不断和小张吃饭。他想借“理想的女人”来试验自己而失败，这些都是暗示。
神秘女子要试探黄先生的儿子阿迪而献吻，他的表现与他说的竟会不同，所以他“三个月换一个女友”，而且他懂得修理洗衣机（充份明了女人），也都是教人猜疑他和黄先生是不是“父子同科”。
片中的神秘女子是不存在的，她代表了昔日温惋可人又任劳任怨的女子。这类女性今日几乎不再有了。所以电影借黄先生的女儿的手把她“消灭”，因为这是女性走出厨房令这类男人“理想中的女人”成为稀有而渐渐消灭。)

No Long Blog.... Lazy...

Seeing H 5 days str8 this week….. walao…. More frequent than we pak tor tat time :p

Monday, H start his course … his study place is veli near my work place ….. B4 his class begin, tot wanna fetch him to the bank 1^st …. But he was late… so just enough time to go optical shop to buy contact lenses….

Tuesday, I date him for dinner lar….

Wednesday, him need to buy some stuffs …. So I go fetched him to Carrefour….

Thursday, he comes look for me at noon during my lunchtime…. For accompany him to the bank….

Friday, I go lunch with him between his study lunch break…. So I fetched him to somewhere to hv cheaper lunch…. J

Just like a dead walking body this week…. Still trying veli hard & struggling to stop hv any feelings when seeing H….

Downloaded F.I.R. new songs….. hehe …. Wu Xian .. not nice…. So din download… I just got Qian Nian Zhi Luan, Ba Ai Fang Kai & Shi Xin De Li You…. yay~ yay~

Just let it be lar…

Although not attached anymore with H…. but still seeing him 2 to 3 times a week… erm… coz at least I wanna see him once a week lar… :p the other 1 or 2 times is he suddenly pop up something…. & I go help out lor…. Why am I so willing to help? Coz honestly deep down in my heart… I wish to see him more…. & I wont reject any of his request….. So just let it be lar… learning to expect nothing so wont be disappointed later …..

Wont be chat so often at nite in IRC or MSN liao…. Just leave my nick in IRC to auto voice ppl nia …. Coz re-playing some PS2 games… hehe …. waiting Final Fantasy XII to be release….

Boring Sunday

Slept 4 hours only ..... then woke up drove parent to Seremban....
Back kl around 3pm ...... on9 then nap ....

nothing much happen... ... ...

Surprise Saturday

Me & Yuanfen went to Vans work place to surprise him .... wakakaka.... he so surprise de.... :) we went there too early .. coz dun expect we can find the place tat easy... hehe....

Vans was really cool~ there ... hehe.... proud to hv a fren like him :Þ

Waited for Vans to finish work .... then we go supper around 2.30am..... must be Vans treat us supper ler~ muahahaha ... Thx Vans~ :)

Went back home oredi 5.30am.... =.-" ngam ngam mum woke up o yeh liu... :p been nagged~! ....

Friday nite: Movie time~

Went for movie with Yuanfen at 1 utama ..... after fong gong went back home bath.... then str8 away goto 1 Utama ..... so jam at LDP ~!!! sob sob sob....

9th Movie: Samara * * * ½

Simple but great effect to scare ppl. All the actors in the film was just so so..... but for a scarry movie .. dun expect too much ... :p

Back home around 10.45pm .... waited H to miss call .... & he did miss call around 11.10pm .... call back.... chatted for 30 mins.... :)

iNdesCribaBle FeeLings

Wednesday (06/04/05)

Went to Carrefour, H wanna buy a study table. But no stock for the table we chosen. L We went for
glossaries shopping …. If we are still a couple, this will be veli hang fook ….. haiz…. Think too much … :p

1st time go into his place after broke …. The feelings was …. indescribable ………………

Thursday (07/04/05)

Went to Carrefour at my place, bought the study table for H. Go fetch him after work at 9.45pm. After dinner…. around 10.50pm …. Go to his place to assemble the table…. If we are couple …. sure hang fook oso…. coz assemble the table 2gether … haiz… think too much again … :p Assembled till around 12.20am….. otw driving back …. Been thinking a lot too ……

This shud be the last thing that I need to settle for him…. Everything shud be in order for him to settle in kl liao….

We hv been through many things 2gether. When he first came to kl : - we meet up, we look around for jobs, we look around for room, look around for college, …… etc

When we break…. I told him that I shudn’t see him again…. But after that I changed my mind coz I know he still need help to settle few things….. I shud give some times to help him settle it … Now all the things shud be settled, just wait for next week … when he started his course… see whether he can cope in both study & work…. After tat, I felt my jobs is done…. I shud really let go…… b4 this I din think about the time frame to really let go ….. Next Wednesday is the 1 month “anniversary” for our break up …. Maybe that’s the best time ….. maybe…....

Perhaps no one understand how I felt in these few weeks after break… I m happy & sad when seeing him …. I m happy b’coz he is doing fine & seeing his will to succeed his dream is so strong, I m happy that he still treat me as a good fren……, I m sad he really treat me a just a good fren…… every time he commented another guy, the feeling really sour & sad to see he might become as bad mouth as his colleagues at his work place..... >.<

Lips

Boring Tuesday.... nothing much happen.... started hao fa fa again in MSN & IRC :p
Aiks ... must stop it.... hehe....

Got ppl hinting me to date him for movie.... but I m hesitated .... this person is previously I hao fa fa say wanna kao him de...
then after I pak tor.... no more chat with him liao lor.... today he mentioned wanna go for movies (eyes 10 & samara) but no one pui.... erm .... I still not prepared to meeting anyone .... so better keep the distance.....

When driving back home from work.... listening to the radio .... got a xin li che yan.... when the person u love been cursed, the tears coming out from his eyes days & nights .... oni with your kiss will stop the tears.... which part will you be kissing him to break the curse? His hair, His nose, His cheek or His lips...... OMG..... my mind keep thinking about HIS LIPS..... *^-^*

Tomolo will hv dinner with H... :p

Aiks .... few days no blog :p

Erm .... lazy for few days no write blog... hehe .... now write summary :p

Friday (1/4/05): April fool ..... nothing much happen.... at night go look for H hv dinner.... then back home play PS2....

Saturday (2/4/05): Played PS2 the whole day..... morning till evening.... eyes so tired.... a fren called to yam cha, but I dunno the place so not keen to go lor.... :p Luckily Yuanfen on9, so we go to our lao di fang (usual old place) yam cha.... chat about the Da Vinci Code fiction.... haha .... veli interesting fiction.... both so excited about the story... but I cant talk too much... coz he still not yet finsih reading... :p otw back home, H called says he will overnight at colleague place tonite coz tomolo will work in Bukit Bintang .... & later will follow them to LW.... I asked him to be careful lor.... tats all I can say.... Kind of worried about him mixing too much with those "experience gay lou" colleagues.... coz peer influence.... when u mixed around too much with them .... ur thinking will be oso like them..... which I think H will be "mind polluted" .... but I din told him this .... coz he is free to choose his frens .... I dun wanna give too much opinion.... let him decide his own path ..... Back home.... played PS2 again..... till 3am...... nothing happen to H in LW & at his colleague place de hor? .... my mind keep thinking..... haiz.....

Sunday (3/4/05): Go to Pai San in the Morning till noon .... so hot.... lucky got saw a cute boy during the journey, wahahaha :p .....went home so tired ... but played PS2 again till evening ... In the evening, Randolf called... chatted long time on the phone.... :p expensive leh.... hehe .... Randolf Gan Ba Teh... :> At nite... yam cha with Yuanfen.... tired to go out.... so ask Yuanfen come find me .... wahahha ... chat about the ending of the Da Vinci Code... went home after yam cha, H called ... ask to hv dinner tomolo.... forgot he wat time fong gong for morning shift jor... :p tot is 6.30pm.... but is 6pm ..... get scold.... haha ... ai yar... long time din go pick him fong gong liao mar.... ..... :p so I told him I'll be his place at 7pm... :)

Monday (4/4/05): Bought a new network card ..... finally can use back my own pc to on9 ..... & can put "away" over the night... :p Go find H hv dinner... dated him 7pm .... 6.30pm he oni called saying he will be late .... changed to 8pm .... aiks.... I oredi otw liao lor.... he still dun get it tat ... I m always a punctual person..... will always be early or just on time.... I din told him I oredi otw.... just told him take his time.... after tat .... drive veli slowly.... purposely stay at the jam lane to kill time..... Reached his place at 7.05pm .... a bit drizzling.... sent sms to H, telling him I'll be at the LRT station wait him,.... I know he still coughing so dun wan him to catch cold walking home.... 7.45pm .... H called... he say can goto his place liao .... he oredi home & taken bath jor.... & he just got my sms oni .... (sei Maxis ..... lousy service)

Tot wanna goto MV hv dinner.... he almost working everyday..... dun hv much time to relax..... so thinking when we go dinner, we go further from his work place & wangsa maju.... can make him relax & breath some fresh air .... but later Vans ask me go yam cha with him & Yuanfen .... so oni can go nearby lor.... actually wanna pui H longer de lor.... aiks.... but Vans 1 week oni come back KL 1 day... must give face lor.... :p After dinner, dropped H at cc to on9....

Went to yam cha with Vans & Yuanfen. Both so quiet... both oso pai seh meh? hehe .... :p after yam cha went back on9 a while .... wah ... oredi 1.15am .... finally downloaded ... Zhang Sheng Xiang Qi (Fish Leong's Concert version) ... haha... so nice.... wanna send to Yuanfen... DCC failed.... :( ask him dl himself... wahaha :p ... zzzzZZZZ

* Oh ya ... soli to Ben Ben ... soli to turn u down few times to asked me hv lunch or breakfast wor.... coz timing really not ngam ar.... dunno u still got read my blog or not... hehe....

Movie: White Noise

Thursday:

Today Fansu suddenly asked me wanna go KLCC jln jln boh..... I tot he feeling down wan ppl pui him ..... but I promised liao Yuanfen watch movie in the evening.... so asking Fansu to join us lor.... but Fansu dun wan .... I keep persuade him, he oso dun wan.... sigh.... later then oni I know Fansu meeting someone there .... hhmm ..... Fansu no tell me..... :p

8th Movie: White Noise * * ½

Not scarry ..... story line just so so ..... the actor often just starring at the tv screen... this make the movie a bit boring..... the movie just about 1 hour 30 mins .... kind of short but you feel you hv been there more than 1 hour 30 mins...