What next .. continue ….

After join back IRC…. I only know GM channel…. Communicated with 1 26 yrs old mix Malay – Chinese for few mths …. He ask to meet for few times … I rejected …. Finally 1 fine day.. we meet up… same as few years ago…. fetched ppl after work back to his home…. At 1^st just watch tv at the living room…. Then he invited me to “visit” his room….. wat next?? ….. end up tfk lor….. NO anal :p >.< really cant goto ppl house went meet up …. Sure something will happen… after tat I never keep in touch with him jor… OMG~ this is my “first ONS” and will be the last ….. nottie nottie~! Piakz piakz me again~….. T.T

Then after tat I join CP channel… so din join GM channel any more…. Thx to CP hong pai ah gu ask me to join :p CP really more friendly …. J more pure ppl…. Coz all young young de…. :p but not new to plu life…. Coz mostly oredi got how many how many ex jor ….. =.-""

Make good frens in CP …. & appreciate the friendship J

I was thinking .. maybe I can find my true love here….. maybe I can find a bf that still “fresh” not been polluted too much…. & I treat him real nice… cares him make him feels hang fook …. Then we might hv chance to be together forever…. Of coz the main thing is that I must likes him & him must like me too …. Finally I hv found H …. & the rest of the story u all shud know liao …. :p

Back to my fren’s 2^nd part of the question “hv I move on?” ….. really not easy for me to move on… coz for this 1^st relationship of my life… accumulated 29 years of love…. all put into this relationship…. When it’s over… 29 years of love died with it….. what next? ….. I really dunno …. Love no more … just pain left over ……

1 more mth plus ….. will be officially turning 30 yrs old….. so old jor~ L my last year birthday wish came true….. but din last forever ….. What next this year? ……………..