Today walking alone on the way back to office….. Suddenly I found back the long lost feeling…. The feeling of walking alone on the street …. This feeling was long lost after I pak tor with HIM…. just like the movie (Li Ku Li Ku San Nin Choi) Andy Lau found back his "old frens" at the end of the movie...
haha… I will remember this feeling from now on till the day I die.
Saw Ooby left msg in my blog… knew tat he ..erm.. something happen lor…
Then sms Ooby…. Say will call him later at nite …
After watch drama …. 10.08pm … call Ooby… din pick up oh~ L
Then on9 chat ….. 10.41pm … Ooby miss call oh~ …. Called him back…
Second time hear Ooby voice… haha… he say my voice nice wor… erm erm…. *^-^*
Later other ppl see this .. must got something to say ler…. especially tat Vans …. :X
Ooby veli talkative oh…. Nice talking to …. J
Dun wan chat with Ooby sad things….
So 3 8 together with him lor… ngek ngek….
Indirectly say Ooby 3 8 …. Muahahaha…. :x
Chat about 40mins… hope Ooby got sleet well oh~ … J
Tuesday (19/07/05)
Downloading Korean drama, FULL HOUSE …. Got Rain & Shoong Hui Qiao … 8tv is showing now at 8.30pm …. Rain not leng Zai … but cute cute dei… & got sexy body leh… ngek ngek…. The smile he got… looks cute & innocent…. Hehe… he can be really cool … like in his MTV…
The other actor …. Dunno name… really leng zai … muahahaha… matured looking…
Watched the drama till 11.25pm … then goto bed …
Wednesday (20/07/05)
Boring… at hotel … sms a relationship test to a cute fren …. The reply is 10. wind … means person you love most in your life…. Muahahaha…. :x
Back home … continue watch Korean drama ….
Thursday (21/07/05)
Goto 1U GSC for movie .. 1st time goto the new GSC cenima… nice…. Seats can rest the head…. Haha…. Comfortable …..
24th Movie: The Island * * * *
For me … not bad the movie … A film by 2 producer company (Warnes Bro & Dreamswork) … I always like Ewan Mcgregor…. So must support de~ :p The stuns in the movie is quite cool & entertaining …. But the actors is hardly injured in the movie … hahha…. Unbelievable…..
Backed home at 10.30pm …. Saw cannon use my nick kakacaocao … I go kick him … muahahaha….. :p at 1st I oso din bother him …. But then got ppl come click me… ask me am I angry… =.-“ I oso blur … I din chat with him just now how I angry leh… then noticed he chat with cannon (my nick) …. Dulan jor… :x KICKED~!
11.46pm … HE miss call … called back HIM … chat on HIS work problems…. Maybe wanna change job… maybe wanna get a full time job & study part time… I asked HIM to ask the college got cover part time scholarship? Then oni decide…
HE asked tml free mar….? can help HIM buy something mar? .. I say ok ….
Friday (22/07/05)
At hotel oso today …. Morning sms the cute fren wanna watch movie on coming Sunday…. Then called Vans to chit chat… chat till phone auto cut off… haha… 1 hour 30mins … :x then Vans called back … chat a while more …. I go breakfast.. hungry~
The cute fren reply … not free this Sunday … L
After breakfast …. Sleepy… coz lately watch Korean drama till veli late… muahahaha….. then I goto my car took a nap …. Till 12.00pm … hehe…. :p
Suddenly think about wanna buy some candy for HIM to9 … use candy to cheat kid… muahahah….. :p
Accidentally deleted all my saved sms~!!! T.T wu wu wu wu …. So cham …. So BIG HEAD PRWAN!!! & I dun eat prawn~!! :x
Din buy candy .. but bought jor carrefour de sushi for HIM .. wait HIM fong gong… asked Him last nite izzit 9.30pm fong gong as usual …. HE said yes…. 9.20pm reached there wait….. wait till 9.55pm …. Oso din come out yet… aiks …. Called HIM … HE say today 1st day sales … 10.00pm oni fong gong … >.< ….
10.15pm… HE came out … HE say HE oni know today need to work till 10.00pm … haiz…. Can sms me de mar… but HE din lor….
Saturday (23/07/05)
Watch downloaded MTV … anime …. & Korean drama …
Nite… HE ask tomolo nite free mar? wanna go MV mar? … I say ok …
Sunday (24/07/05)
Woke up at 9.30am … watch Korean Drama … Full House… last 3 episode ady…. Some dialogue really ngam me …. Cry …. But the drama is Happy Ending…. Think about my ending ….. haiz…. Fated to be sad ending ….. L
6.00pm … bath then style my hair…. Aiks… 50% ok 50 failed… :x dun care lar.. go out like tat…
6.55pm … HE came to Bukit Jalil LRT… HE saw my hair & say… u ngam ngam fen siang ar? (just woke up ar?) ….. =.-“ …… I cheat HIM … erm.. no ar…. I go cut hair just now ….. the hair stylist style my hair like this….. muahahahha….. :x HE say … leng zai wor… >.< … vomit …. :p
goto dinner .. eat pak kut the.. then goto MV…. HE wanna buy shirts …
not much conversation …. Mostly coz I quiet …Slept early last nite….. around 10.40pm… goto bed lor… coz a bit headache….
12.01am…. HE miss call …. I woke up… called back…. Talk about HE went gym on Sunday…. Saw many leng zai… fit fit some more… (jealous) …. HE went to sauna …. felt shy…. (jealous) ….. HE says sign up gym oso not bad… can be healthy mar….. erm… not can see leng zai meh? :p HE not so happy I mentioned in the letter tat HE oni goes for looks now… keep remind me HE still goes for heart…. Haiz… plu goes for looks… normal lar… 99.99% plu goes for looks…. Beauty in bachelor eyes mar… each person got his own judgment of leng zai…
HE say HE housemate got 2 weeks free gym session for HIM …. So dun wan waste tat…. So tomolo will goto gym oso …..
The line cut off 3 times….. sigh…. L dunno izzit my hp sot jor…. Got a feeling is my hp sot jor…. :x
00.22am…. hang up… sleepless….. omg…. Roll roll roll ….. like orange roll here roll there…… >.< cham ….
Tuesday morning…. Woke up … still a bit headache…. Haiz….
Saturday nite slept 4 hours something…. L
Then Sunday noon… nap from 3.00pm till 6.00pm ….
Sunday nite ….. slept from 11.45pm …. Till 7.45am …..
But in between… woke up few times after 4.00am..
Now a bit headache liao …… cham ….
Vans ask me dun go see HIM anymore… dun bother HIM anymore… HE lives HIS life …. I live my life…. Then I must change my outlooks… to look more ying zai :p
But sometimes HE still need help leh…. :x I still need go see HIM sometimes when HE needs help lor…
Last time b4 falls in love …. When watching or reading those sad ending movie or story… I always imagine I m the sad character .. the one tat always stays beside the main actor… the one tat always din get the love in return …. The one that always help the main character to get his love … the one that secretly admires the main actor …… they all got such a nice attitude… I always think I m like them …. Veli “wei da” … they wont got jealous … they just secretly helping the person they love………… so nice & so stupid..
I realized I m not tat “wei da” ….. coz I always felt jealous leh… lolx …. Aiks… so sui hor ? …… not good hor? L5.00am something …. Heard some one called me from SKYPE….. I agak agak shud be vans … dun bother lar… not call me with hp …. Muahahah…. Sleep till 6..00am … woke up ….. 6.09am vans call…. Say coming shortly to dim sum …. I say ok … will get prepare…. 6.30am …. Prepared jor …. Go out side wait … then do some warm up exercise … I think I got 1 year no do exercise at all :x … muahaha …
sui vans …. Say come shortly .. hmmp …. 7.04am oni reached… :p
We go Sri Petaling de dim sum … wahahaha… got cute boi :x cheng leng bak jeang de young boi :x
We chat chat …. & see cute boi .. muahahaha…. Told him part of the story last nite….. :p Vans says my tactic failed jor…. L ma de… lolx~~~
He keep ask me …. STYLE MY HAIR~! Change my out look!! I say …… ooooo kkkkk :x
After breakfast….. we go tmn midah yao che hor….. goto see Andy Lau de house …. Then goto see “ppl” play basketball ….. :x
Friday 15/07/05 (Continue)
Orange Zai called … asking tonite the movie in Starlight still on…. Aiks…. I got meeting in KL … scared cannot make it…. So I will ask Fansu wanna go watch mou? Called Fansu no answer…. >.< ….. sms Fansu …. No reply oso ….. :x b4 goto meeting… on9 saw Fansu there leh….. :p with Garfield there oso …. Garfield sick jor…. No wonder Fansu so gan cheong … so no answer & reply sms…. :p asked Fansu wan go movie mar? …. Erm … Fansu worry Garfield so dun hv mood go leh…. Ok lor…. Understand de….. these few days oso keep raining in the evening…. So the grass in the field must be wet wet oso lor…. Eee…. Not nice in such environment… so we decide dun go lor…. Sorry to Orange Zai wor…. :p
At nite …. H on9 at home town….. erm…. Chat a while … HIS pc dn hv real player …. So HE din watch the movies I downloaded & burned in cds … … & HE din noticed the letter …. I asked HIM remember bring back the cds oh…. I dun wan tell HIM got letter inside the envelope …. :x …. HE say ok… & felt weird coz I so gan cheong ask HIM bring back the cds :p
Since no fate to read the letter …. And no fate to know my feelings…. ok lor… take back the letter … maybe add more things then oni give HIM read again :p
12.20am …. I felt a bit moody maybe coz HE din notice the letter…. So I say wanna goto bed jor… HE ask tomolo can go fetch HIM fong gong mar? coz wanna return money to me…. I say ok.
Then I just away from the chat room…. I waited HE off line at 1.40am… then oni goto bed …. :x
Saturday (16/07/05)
Woke up 9.22am ….. called HIM ask HIM in bus jor mei? ….. HE say not yet…. Just arrived bus station oni …. The bus is 9.30am …
Nothing much to do after tat….. on9, fetched mum … boring….
Vans called in the late noon … chat a while…. I called him back … we decided to eat dim sum tomolo morning around 6am …. :x
Bring leong cha to fetch HIM at nite…. We goto Old Klang Road .. eat mixed rice… tat’s the oni place I know still got mixed rice after 10pm …. Actually tat place is to eat porridge one …. But there oso got rice lar….
Any one know where still got Mixed Rice after 10.00pm ar?? Plz tell me :x
OTW to OKR … forgot wat the radio deejay says .. …. If got a person .. cares u, understanding u, love u... the person tat he love must be in happiness.... The deejay ask dunno where got such a person? …. something like tat ….. HE says … got … I asked got meh? Who ar? …….. HE says Mike lor…. I say cheh….. In my heart.. I was thinking ….. ya.. rite… MIKE… pity this Mike … such a good person U oso dun wan … :p ….. wat a joke? >.< ….
After dinner … fetch HIM home ….. HE say tomolo no work…. Will follow house mate goto gym in the morning … then evening will hv steamboat with them oso…
Reached HIS place ….. HE search the envelope from HIS bag…. Then…. Unexpected & shocked … HE open envelope…. Take the cds…. Then HE noticed got papers inside … and take out …. Ask me…wat’s tat ar? …. >.< …. I try to grab the letter… but HE grab back .. :x I say tat’s a letter I wrote to HIM … we say bye bye …. I drive home…
Driving home….. still shock… Y I so stupid…. I shud say tat’s some papers I put in the envelope to protect the cds mar….. aiks…… stupid stupid…. :p
SMS HIM I reached home ….. later …. HE miss call ….. I called back…..
HE says HE cried reading the letter …. HE speaks mandarin with me….. HE asked why mentioned disappointed HE spoken vulgar but say HIM dun change oso nvm ….. ? I say that’s HIS own decisions mar… I understand why HE need to speak Cantonese vulgar with other frens…. Coz tat will make HIM not easy to bully by other ppl especially at HIS work place….
HE say I was wrong in some points … HE is still a veli pure little angel as b4 … :x HE says HE still goes to the heart of a person … HE is not going for looks….. the looks is just the 1st impression …. I din argue much …… I say most of the PLU oso goes by the looks 1st de lar…. :x HE says I think HIM tat way coz HE always mentioned which boiboi is cute … but HIS other colleagues oso dun think those boiboi tat HE think is cute … is cute…. :x
HE says sorry if I still sad when think of the unsuccessful relationship … I say enough for saying sorry lar… now is not HIS problem oso …. HE say dun cry when think of the relationship ler…..
HE says HE is not sure lor… wanna protect ppl or let ppl protect …. HE says deped lar… if the next person is want to protect HIM then HE will let ppl protect … if the person is required protection then HE will protect ppl lor ….
In the last part of the letter … I say will slowly let go of HIM …. HE says try lor … slowly lor … :x
HE say HE felt touched coz got a person observed HIM & care HIM so detail … even though we broke up ….. HE says HE remembered strongly last time I said … “no matter wat happen …. I will be there to support HIM … there will be a person always love HIM” ….. :
In the letter I say I wont “chong ai” HIM anymore lor …. HE asked wats “chong ai” … I explain something like pampered HIM lor… like buy HIM egg tart or leong cha … when go fetch HIM fong gong or go find HIM ar… :x HE say oh…. Nvm wor…. I still can “chong ai” HIM de oh… :p
1.20am…. I say sorry for make HIM cried …. we hang up …....
Listening to Landy’s new song “ai hui wen” (love return warm)…..
HE knows I not yet let go fully …. I know HE wont come back to me …….Thursday (14/07/05)
Watched movie with Yuanfen, Thomas (Hush) and Raphael. Thomas… erm… grown meat jor (Fei jor)…. Aiks… young ppl sure easy grow meat…. Envy sei me …. Raphael .. 1st time meet… he was late…. :x wakakaka …. Got a key chain from him… yeah~~ key chain from UK … :p
23rd Movie: Fantastic 4 * * * ½
Maybe expect too much … end up … it seems nothing so great about the movie…. Not much action actually with the bad guy ….. just at the end few scene…. A bit disappointed about tat….. Got a feeling … Fantastic 4 similar with The Incredible …. The Thing = Mr. Incredible, Mr. Fantastic = Elastic Gal, Invisible Women = Violet, Human Torch = Jack Jack (Jack Jack got change to human torch at the end of the movie…. Remember?) No doubt … the Human Torch is gorgeous … ngek ngek ngek …. He really leng zai … smart looking… nice body … muahahaha …. :x
Back home after movie…. Play play with the 7 puppies… then goto bed lur~… so guai … sleep early……. Coz next day got meeting early morning…. L
Friday (15/07/05)
2.28pm … HE miss call …. Ask HIM doing wat ….. HE just got home from lunch with borther….. HE say last nite yam cha till almost 4am with frens … I ask HIM whether got do the work HE brought home do….. HE laugh… hehehe… to9 oni do…. I say to9 HE sure lazy do lar~… hehe… sure din do then bring back to kl …. & tell ppl HE too busy at home… so din do lor…. Muahahaha….
I hv chosen a difficult path to let go…. Some times I will get confuse …. & stuck at some where….
To forget a relationship… best way will be … dun see him again, dun contact him again, dun hear his news, dun even bother him again… by this … you will let go easily….. even though you still like him a lot…..
But I chosen a different way …. I m trying to let go…. But I still seeing HIM … chat with HIM … in the process of help HIM …. I lost my way …. Maybe because I see a hope … a hope tat HE might be coming back….. tat’s y I will feel jealous …. Feel sad …. Feel like crying ….
I having problem to find a way out … …… I will find a way out….
Radio playing Mariam Yeung de song, over age (Chiu Ling)…. Lolx … so ngam me listen.. :x
At nite about 8.27pm Cannon call …. He came back from “dating” jor… :p We chat a while then I say wanna go out liao lu …. He asked me go where? I say going fetch ppl fong gong & goto Pudu buy bus ticket..… Cannon scold me … haiz … say HE oni using me… L …. Why I still treat HIM so good wor … haiz… HE say Vans must be din brain wash me enough…. Wahahaha…. I say ya lor… he brain wash me till left a spark… then the spark … start burning again…. Wakakakka….. :p
8.40pm…. go out lu….. goto buy Tong Gei Egg Tarts first …. J hehe….
9.33pm…. HE fong gong came out… we go Pudu …. Erm… talk then… quiet…. Then talk ….. then quiet ….. mostly I was quiet …..
After bought ticket…. HE say not so hungry ….. dunno wanna eat or not…. I say I bought Egg Tarts for HIM …. J
HE say… wanna pak tor… & take care of a person …. More or less need to use money … I say A A is ok mar… HE say no gar …. Ppl might think HE is gu hon mar…. I quiet… then HE got say …. Those cute boiboi that HE likes always veli childish 1…. HE asked is HE childish oso …. ?? I say …. Erm… half half lor….
Then HE start talk again …. Erm…. Talking about …. HE quite easy change target ….. then HE ask me is HE flower heart? Or slut? …. I say no lor…. Most PLU is like tat … then HE say no mar…. HE is different…. Coz HE not purposely change target 1 mar… coz HIM always been rejected mar … then HE felt no chance to continue… then oni change de mar… some more some target HE din say out de .. just keep in the heart din tell out de…. (I was thinking … ya .. rite… u always been rejected… but I was been rejected by u… blek …) then HE asked….. erm… then do you still can be fren with this kind of person ? will I think HE is flower heart then dun wanna fren HIM…. ?? I say… erm…. I will go home think about it …. Muahhahaha…… :x ….. HE say…. Sui yan! … HE say … how I think of HIM is very important coz I m HIS best fren mar……
The letter …. On the back seat … in an envelope … with 2 cds … I downloaded Madagascar & Mr. And Mrs. Smith …. Borrow HIM go hometown watch … the envelope with few papers (lyrics) put in a bag … try to dun make the letter not so obvious …. Wat’s written in the letter? Erm… basically … is some feeling from the very beginning till last Friday…. That I compare some personality that I felt HE changed … telling HIM how I feel about the changes …. & I did mentioned in the letter …. I will start letting HIM go jor …
The word best fren …. Make me wanna take out the letter ….. just past to HIM the cds & lyrics …. My mind thinking .. later how I take out the letter leh ? …. HE keep talking… about a colleague… always come near HIM … when few colleagues are going out to take LRT as a group…. This colleague (the one that I mentioned b4 in the past blog… the one who goto HIS place bath one) always got wait for HIM … and always got hold HIS hand…. Maybe purposely or not purposely …. HE says HE also just let it be … HE holds back lor…. HE asked … this is not slut hor? It’s nothing hor? Coz this colleague also holds his good frens’ hand mar……. I say this is the tactic to flirt ppl…. :x ….. oooppssss ……. the air full of jealousy ….. haha…. Sure HE din realized I still can jealous… :p
HE says to take care a person really need face many things …. Haiz … maybe HE will change back to let ppl take care or change to like gals ….. I quiet … (tat time reached HIS place jor) ….. I was thinking .. .. wanna take out the letter mou? …. Erm… nvm lar… oredi written ….. more over … if HE din watch the cds … HE wont realized got letter inside …. :p …… HE says … yer… why I so cool oredi geh? Dun hv cheng chui jor…. Cannot joke jor…. Then HE pretend I lock the door dun wanna let HIM out… calling help… lolx ….. I kuchi HIM …. Actually feel like hugging HIM …. Wakkakakaka…… blek…. :p
Pass HIM the bag …. Say bye bye lu…
Driving back… thinking about HE says HE might change back to let ppl take care…. Thinking about Cannon says do a 18 yrs old boy will really like a 30 yrs old old man ??? ……. I just refuse the accept the reality … haiz….. Ooby … come kill me… so that I can reborn…. Muahahaha….. :xFriday (08/07/05)
Noon… IRC ….discuss with Orange and Fansu … Fansu at Orange’s place ….. tomolo how?? Who is going …
Evening …. Phone… HE say HE cant make it on Saturday coz HE need work full day…. But HE say why not go find HIM yam cha after the movie…. I say will be veli late de wor… will be around after 12am… coz we watch 2 movies …. HE say it’s ok coz Sunday HE work noon…. I say ok lor…. I will ask Fansu & Orange Zai later …
Nite …. IRC… Orange say need place to overnite tomolo … we decide Orange ask HIM whether can stay HIS place….
Saturday (09/07/05)
Morning woke up …. Watch Naruto… finally finish the latest episode jor… wakakaka… then Orange zai & Fansu oso come IRC jor… we discuss later how…. Fansu say he got permission to stay fren’s place to9… so Orange Zai need call HIM … ask HIM can both of them stay HIS place…. :x then we discuss wat to bring & wat to eat b4 the movie … I bring 100plus.. Chocolate Kacang, Pringles chips…. We decided to ta bao McD … muahaha…. Fansu so happy…. Coz can eat Mc Flurry Oreo…
Noon… HE ask how to9… we going to find HIM yam cha mar? …. I say go ar…. Tot Orange oredi call HIM jor… but not yet… I ask can Fansu & Orange overnite HIS place .. HE say can…
4.30pm… bath & get prepare to go out lur ….. try style the hair….. but failed jor…. Cant make the shape… L … so mar chin cai lor… comb like usual :x
5.25pm…. wait Fansu & Orange at LRT station …. Fansu arrived 1st… then 2gether wait for Orange…. Wah… Fansu brought a lot of potato chips & snacks…. Like going for a party like tat… hehe… Orange late jor… :x
After orange arrived… we go ta bao McD at Connaught… then on the way to Startlight Cinema lur~ …. Quite smooth all the way …. Reached Bukit Kiara at 6.35pm …. We need to park at Gate 2… L need to walk far far to the entrance of Nokia Startlight Cinema leh~~ I walk front… Fansu & Orange walk behind… Fansu ask he & orange who taller… muahahaha…. Orange taller …. A bit lor…. :x
Once enter the open ground of the cinema…. Wah.. many ppl there jor…. Got many charity society there… we found a spot to settled down… then sit there.. look around…. Erm… no leng zai … muahahahha…. Still so early … 8.30pm oni start show… we eat McD… wahaha…. French Fries all soft soft jot … :x …. The sky a bit cloudy… drops rain jor… wah~~ scary… scared raining heavily…. But lucky didn’t lor…. Hehe…. After had McD… Me & Orange go walk around …. Orange saw got games to play … but I say tat’s for children de wor … coz all line up there de were kids nia mar …. Then he say… ish~~ ok lor… dun wan stay here mar dun stay lor… :p hehe…. So siu hei… joking joking …. :x
Finall waited till 8.40pm…..
22nd Movie: Robots * * * ½
Very entertaining … hehe … the robot city .. so fantastic designed … the transportation so fun to watch ….
10.05pm…. finished 1st movie…. Wait for 2nd movie… it says break for 15 mins…. I say.. wah.. ok… 15mins oni… then can finish b4 12am leh~ good… can go yam cha early …. Then HE no need to wait so long for us to go over lor… I m sure HE felt sien to wait for us… :x hehe…. Got free orange drinks to take…. Wahahahah… me & orange go queue up …. Haiz… 1 person limited to 1 can oni…. :p but after tat … orange zai go line up again … take 1 more tin… but then we saw got ppl 1 time take 2 – 4 tins!!! …. Wah…. I oso go take 2 tins … :p hehe…. I dun wan drink de… take for HIM nia … :X
10.35pm… HE miss call…. HE ask wat time we go over…. I say 2nd show start soon… 12am the show shud over…. HE say ok… will wait for us…..
Ish~~~ waited 30 mins jor…. Still not yet start de movie leh~… 10.45pm oni start advertisement… 11.05pm oni start 2nd show : The Incredible …. Haiz… so late jor…
Sunday (10/07/05)
12.15am … HE miss call again… I called back…. Told HIM the show started late … so around 12.45pm oni finish leh…. HE say… wah… so late…. Then dun wan yam cha lor… I say ok lor… I thinking (I din say out) if no yam cha.. then I fetch orange & fansu to Nilai lor… coz if HE wan sleep now.. later no need kacao HIM mar… but HE say they can go overnite lor… then HE change mind say… erm.. ok lar… go yam cha lar… I say ok lor… we reach there we call HIM lor… then hang up….
2 mins later…. HE sms … say HE was tired … wan sleep early… let HIM know later whether we decide going HIS place mou? Haiz… I dunno HE wan us go or not? 2 mins ago say ok go yam cha…. 2 mins later sms say tired… confused….
12.45pm… show finish …. I give the sms msg to orange see… then I told him I can fetch them to Nilai … no need kacao HIM …. Ask him decide if wanna go overnite at HIS place … then I inform HIM lor… Orange Zai no idea…. He ask Fansu to decide…. Fansu say stick to original plan… goto HIS place lor… then I called HIM at 1.05am… say we are going over… HE say ok.. wait for us ..
OTW goto HIS place… suddenly heavy rain…. Walao… hardly see the road…. >.< …. Finally reached HIS place still heavy rain… & dun hv parking near HIS place..…. We go around few times jor… aiks… I say I park near aside blocking ppl car a while… then lead Orange & Fansu to HIS place …. Then I quickly come back … Orange & Fansu say find a better parking lar.. we all go HIS place chit chat till rain not so heavy then oni I go … I say dun wan lar…. Dun wanna kacao HE sleep early lor… Then I park at further place… not blocking ppl car…. Lead both of them to HIS place… we all wet! Hahhaha… coz really heavy rain … wasted some time… finally 2.10am at HIS door jor… HE open door let Orange & Fansu in… I know Fansu & Orange worry me drive back …. & wan me stay there lor…. But I dun wan lar… My pants & shirt at the back oso wet jor… I told Fansu I will wait at the car till rain not so heavy then oni drive back lor…. More over HE heard me going back oso din ask me stay a while …. :x haiz … nvm lor…. I oredi decide going home de mar…. If HE ask me stay a while I will stay de ar :p
Go back to the car…. More wet jor… still heavy rain…. Drive back slowly … the road so wet & the highway got some water blocked … cant see clearly tim :x finally reached home save at 2.50am gua….. dun remember… sms 3 of them…
Took bath …. On9 while waiting hair to dry…. 4 am something oni sleep … thinking dun wan sleep …. Coz Vans say he will back kl in the morning then we go eat dim sum… but still go nap lor….
6.15am… Vans called …. We go dim sum at connaught … muahahha…. Nice dim sum … saw leng zai there too …. :x
8.45am… Vans ask wanna go see his ex got playing basket ball mou :x I say ok ar … wah.. that place is actually near Fansu house .. the play round there…. :x if Fansu is there sure will go surprise Fansu … but Fansu at HIS place now :x hehe
9am something back home …. Goto bed at 10am …. 11.34am…. HE miss call…. I called back … nothing much … just ask wat I m doing… continued sleep again….
Slept till 2pm something then have porridge then sleep back … till 4pm something…
On9 chit chat…. Fansu so busy… din chat with me…. then Orange zai on9… chat with Orange lor … Orange ask me wanna know wat about Orange zai… erm… I dunno wat to ask ar…. Coz I felt those are Orange privacy mar…. Orange hv right to dun tell de mar… nvm de lar.. not a big matter actually …. :p orange got blog hor?? Din give me read oso …. Hmmph….
Orange zai got Starlight cinema free tickets ….. coz wanna watch Robots & The Incredible on Saturday nite…. Coz the tickets is 2 person per ticket …. So must find even number of ppl to go watch … if not will wasted 1 ticket… :X ….. I suggest find Fansu & Yuanfen go …. Orange oredi ask HIM go oso…. but finally … Yuanfen dun wan watch Robots…. So he dun wan go… left Fansu & HIM to confirm… I say will call HIM at nite…
11.20pm I called HIM …. HE was barbequing with frens …. Answered the phone like I m disturbing HIM… I asked HIM free Sat nite coz Orange got free tickets for movie… then HE say ya hor…. Erm… still dunno… need to check tomolo … I say ok… then let me know tomolo…. Then HE say HE not happy now…. Coz saw the person HE dun wan see…. Some more tat person bring another fren come barbeque …. I ask HIM fast fast eat liao then go home lor…. HE say they just start put on fire oni…. >.< …. Then HE ask me fly car go there pui HIM go else where chit chat …. I say I wanna fly to my bed sleep liao … hahaha…. Then HE say .. hmmph… go lar go lar go sleep lar u .. :p
21st Movie: The Amityville Horror * * *
Been censored some horror scenes … the story based on the true story …. Quite scary if all the horror scene didn’t been censored… the little gal, Chalssie, acting is not so good… but she really brave standing & walking at the roof of the house …. The male actor, George (Ryan Reynolds) is so hot~ :X muahahaha…. & with sexy body :pTuesday (05/07/05)
12.15am… back home rest …
took bath …. Then looking at the monitor screen… din chat …. Been thinking … thinking ……. & thinking………. Break up 112 days …. I need to give up …. Think .. think & keep thinking ….. until goto bed …
6.00am …. Woke up…. Need to get prepare goto grandmum house for the last funeral procedures …. Oni slept 4 hours … L
2.00pm …. Back home ….
6.00pm something … H sms…. Ask to fetch HIM coz wanna pay back the money to me…. I say ok… will fetch HIM fong gong at 9.30pm….
9.54pm…. HE came out …. We go dinner …. HE told me the story on Monday again going out with the cute boi & meet
then HE say maybe got 1 gal colleague like HIM …. :x coz HE praised her tat she is beautiful …. I was quiet …. For a moment …. I told my self …GIVE UP on HIM ….. HE noticed I m quiet…. Ask me why so quiet… I say nothing …
Otw fetch HIM home …. HE ask me do I disappointed coz HE speaks vulgar words & be veli chou lou …. I say yes…. HE say then HE change lor … HE be chou lou with HIS colleagues but be guai guai with me … I say then tat mar veli fake lor… you just do wat u likes lor…. U prefers how then do lor….
Suddenly I got lot of thing wanna tell HIM …. All my feelings … from the veli beginning until now …. But I know HE got many things to fan now….. family issues, works, study … I also dun wanna fan HIM liao ….
I think I will write down those feelings …. Then give it to HIM the next time I see HIM ….
Otw drive home …. I finally got the feeling… wanna let HIM go from my heart…
For me …. I wont consider a bf that got many ppl likes him and many choices to choose … Not because I dun hv confident in my self… but I dun hv confident in him … if a person that knows he got many choices … when some relationship problems accrued … he wont appreciated the relationship or consider solve the problems with you 100% … coz he might think … why I must tolerate?? I got other better choices out there waiting for me….. …… you might not agree with my point .. but I strongly believed.. this will affect a relationship if one party do not hv heart to continue the journey with you….
Last time I did not see clearly …. Maybe love blinded me… I may not attach with HIM if I know HE got choices…. HE told me b4 … HE dun chose ppl …. But now it’s not the same anymore….
While waiting at the traffic light turning to Sri Petaling …. tears drop out …. The heart is still so em ser dak…. I told my self… this shud be the last time I cry b’coz of this past relationship…. This time… it’s over …. No more jealous no more pain ….
If you ask me .. wat if HE want me back…. ?? then HE need to come kao me lor… muahahaha ….. :x
Friday (01/07/05)
HE miss call around 12.00am something …. HE say wanna claim for the movie Madagascar that I said I wanna belanja HIM long time b4… I go check on9… the last show time is 5.45pm… so cannot jor …. Then HE say belanja HIM dinner … HE say HIS colleague said Titiwangsa got 1 restaurant got serve steamboat eat all u can… nice wor… so I ask HIM ask HIS colleague where actually the restaurant is & the name… We fixed at 7.00pm I reached HIS place pick him….
5.30pm … HE say need to do OT … postponed to 7.30pm
6.30pm… I otw to HIS place jor… it need 45 mins drive … coz fong gong time … veli jam at Middle Ring Road 2 … plan to reach at 7.15pm … J
6.34pm … HE miss call again .. HE say HE just finish his work oni… postponed to 8.15pm…. I say ok…. L ….. aiks… oredi otw jor… so purposely drive slow slow.. & choose most jam de lane …
7.35pm… reached HIS place … turn to petrol station… pump petrol …. Mi mi mor mor .. …. … 7.50pm… reached back HIS place…. Wait …..
8.28pm…. HE came down…. HE say sorry …. HE reached home at 8.00pm…. coz just now HE pui a colleague hv dinner 1st … *doink*
otw .. looking for the Nelayan Restaurant …. Just agak agak know where the area… but dunno the exactly place…. Then HE talk talk talk….. & ask me do I feel HE is slut coz got few person HE likes …. I purposely say YES … then HE angry jor … dun wanna talk to me liao … HE say I always like tat .. always say those thing wanna make HIM not happy… HE oredi many pressure still wanna make HIM feel bad… HE say come out with me coz HE wanna relax HIMSELF…..
I say soli lor.. not lar HIS is not slut …. :x then HE say I must say IT in a veli serious way ….. :x then oni HE smile back…..
Finally we found the restaurant …. Many ppl …. Mostly malays…. The food is not veli nice….
10.30pm… otw fetch HIM back…. HE say wanna go CC on9 kao zai & change HIS caller ring tone…. Then HE talk talk talk…. & jokingly say… put me in the potential boiboi list … I was quiet….
11.15pm… I back home…. See HIM on9 … tell HIM is reached home jor…. HE say tq for the meal… I say welcum … & I say plz dun joke with me tat I m on the potential boiboi list … coz I might think too much … HE ask do I still like HIM …. I hesitate a while …. But still say YES…. HE say “oh” …
Saturday (02/07/05)
Totally forgot wat happen…. Nothing special I guess … or my memory loss …
Sunday (03/07/05)
Got plan to go out this morning but …. Lazy… finally oso din go out …. chat on9… then go out ta bao KFC for lunch …. back home watch Naruto ….
Around 3.00pm… father called back… say grandmum passed away….
Wait mum back from Gua Tempurong…. Then oni goto grandmum house to help out the funeral…
On9 chat & watch Naruto again ….
11.00pm…. mum back …. Then we rush to grandmum house … the funeral follow the Taoism way… so got dar jai
11.14pm…. H miss called me….. whole family in the car…. Not fong bin to call HIM back … so sms HIM… will call HIM later… HE sms back … asked can I top up HIS hp for HIM 1st… coz HIS salary not out yet…. Aiks … I dun hv the top up sms number leh… sms HIM … told HIM I otw goto grandmum funeral & dun hv the sms number now… HE replied… tat’s ok…
11.25pm … then I sms Yuanfen… ask him if he on9… goto hotlink website find the postpaid sms top up number for me….
11.34pm …. Yuanfen sms me the number…. So I call H … wanna ask HIM still wan me to top up coz I got the number jor …. HE din pick up… maybe HE sleep jor…
Monday (04/07/05)
12.00am…. the dar jai ended for day 1 …. We go back home …..
12.45am … after bath…. On9 while wait the hair dry … Vans was there…. So lala members go yam cha….
1.30am… Sebs came picked me… we go nearby Sri Petaling eat dim sum …
1.45am – 7.00am ….. scarified sleeping time…. Listening to lala chat… :x haha … coz I din chat much… all lalaclub SOP …. Sebs, Vans & Koko ….
7.00am – 9.00am … sleep… zzzZZZZZZ….
9.00am … wake up … prepare to goto grandmum house .....
9.45am …. Sms HIM …. Ask HIM …. Is HIS salary out…? if not I top up for HIM 1st… HE replied back …. Plz top up for HIM 1st ….
1.30pm …. Back home rest & take bath…..
3.00pm something … HE miss call …. I called back …. HE was in the LRT …. otw going dating … HE told me b4 .. today HE will be going to meet a cute potential boiboi ….
5.00pm… goto grandmum house continue the funeral ….
11.00pm something… HE miss call … I sms HIM… will call HIM later coz funeral procedures going on…. 11.34pm …I called HIM … HE told me HIS dating with the cute boy not work out … coz dun hv common topic to talk… oni cute boy & his fren talking … HE felt left out …. So HE just leave them & go back to HIS work place chat with HIS colleagues…. HE said HE met Orange zai there… they both go dinner & chat a lot … HE say must hv been me so 8 told Orange zai many things … coz Orange zai seems to know all HIS things …… :x