Letter

Friday 15/07/05 (Continue)

Orange Zai called … asking tonite the movie in Starlight still on…. Aiks…. I got meeting in KL … scared cannot make it…. So I will ask Fansu wanna go watch mou? Called Fansu no answer…. >.< ….. sms Fansu …. No reply oso ….. :x b4 goto meeting… on9 saw Fansu there leh….. :p with Garfield there oso …. Garfield sick jor…. No wonder Fansu so gan cheong … so no answer & reply sms…. :p asked Fansu wan go movie mar? …. Erm … Fansu worry Garfield so dun hv mood go leh…. Ok lor…. Understand de….. these few days oso keep raining in the evening…. So the grass in the field must be wet wet oso lor…. Eee…. Not nice in such environment… so we decide dun go lor…. Sorry to Orange Zai wor…. :p

At nite …. H on9 at home town….. erm…. Chat a while … HIS pc dn hv real player …. So HE din watch the movies I downloaded & burned in cds … … & HE din noticed the letter …. I asked HIM remember bring back the cds oh…. I dun wan tell HIM got letter inside the envelope …. :x …. HE say ok… & felt weird coz I so gan cheong ask HIM bring back the cds :p

Since no fate to read the letter …. And no fate to know my feelings…. ok lor… take back the letter … maybe add more things then oni give HIM read again :p

12.20am …. I felt a bit moody maybe coz HE din notice the letter…. So I say wanna goto bed jor… HE ask tomolo can go fetch HIM fong gong mar? coz wanna return money to me…. I say ok.

Then I just away from the chat room…. I waited HE off line at 1.40am… then oni goto bed …. :x

Saturday (16/07/05)

Woke up 9.22am ….. called HIM ask HIM in bus jor mei? ….. HE say not yet…. Just arrived bus station oni …. The bus is 9.30am …

Nothing much to do after tat….. on9, fetched mum … boring….

Vans called in the late noon … chat a while…. I called him back … we decided to eat dim sum tomolo morning around 6am …. :x

Bring leong cha to fetch HIM at nite…. We goto Old Klang Road .. eat mixed rice… tat’s the oni place I know still got mixed rice after 10pm …. Actually tat place is to eat porridge one …. But there oso got rice lar….

Any one know where still got Mixed Rice after 10.00pm ar?? Plz tell me :x

OTW to OKR … forgot wat the radio deejay says .. …. If got a person .. cares u, understanding u, love u... the person tat he love must be in happiness.... The deejay ask dunno where got such a person? …. something like tat ….. HE says … got … I asked got meh? Who ar? …….. HE says Mike lor…. I say cheh….. In my heart.. I was thinking ….. ya.. rite… MIKE… pity this Mike … such a good person U oso dun wan … :p ….. wat a joke? >.< ….

After dinner … fetch HIM home ….. HE say tomolo no work…. Will follow house mate goto gym in the morning … then evening will hv steamboat with them oso…

Reached HIS place ….. HE search the envelope from HIS bag…. Then…. Unexpected & shocked … HE open envelope…. Take the cds…. Then HE noticed got papers inside … and take out …. Ask me…wat’s tat ar? …. >.< …. I try to grab the letter… but HE grab back .. :x I say tat’s a letter I wrote to HIM … we say bye bye …. I drive home…

Driving home….. still shock… Y I so stupid…. I shud say tat’s some papers I put in the envelope to protect the cds mar….. aiks…… stupid stupid…. :p

SMS HIM I reached home ….. later …. HE miss call ….. I called back…..

HE says HE cried reading the letter …. HE speaks mandarin with me….. HE asked why mentioned disappointed HE spoken vulgar but say HIM dun change oso nvm ….. ? I say that’s HIS own decisions mar… I understand why HE need to speak Cantonese vulgar with other frens…. Coz tat will make HIM not easy to bully by other ppl especially at HIS work place….

HE say I was wrong in some points … HE is still a veli pure little angel as b4 … :x HE says HE still goes to the heart of a person … HE is not going for looks….. the looks is just the 1^st impression …. I din argue much …… I say most of the PLU oso goes by the looks 1^st de lar…. :x HE says I think HIM tat way coz HE always mentioned which boiboi is cute … but HIS other colleagues oso dun think those boiboi tat HE think is cute … is cute…. :x

HE says sorry if I still sad when think of the unsuccessful relationship … I say enough for saying sorry lar… now is not HIS problem oso …. HE say dun cry when think of the relationship ler…..

HE says HE is not sure lor… wanna protect ppl or let ppl protect …. HE says deped lar… if the next person is want to protect HIM then HE will let ppl protect … if the person is required protection then HE will protect ppl lor ….

In the last part of the letter … I say will slowly let go of HIM …. HE says try lor … slowly lor … :x

HE say HE felt touched coz got a person observed HIM & care HIM so detail … even though we broke up ….. HE says HE remembered strongly last time I said … “no matter wat happen …. I will be there to support HIM … there will be a person always love HIM” ….. :

In the letter I say I wont “chong ai” HIM anymore lor …. HE asked wats “chong ai” … I explain something like pampered HIM lor… like buy HIM egg tart or leong cha … when go fetch HIM fong gong or go find HIM ar… :x HE say oh…. Nvm wor…. I still can “chong ai” HIM de oh… :p

1.20am…. I say sorry for make HIM cried …. we hang up …....

Listening to Landy’s new song “ai hui wen” (love return warm)…..

HE knows I not yet let go fully …. I know HE wont come back to me …….